I understand what you are saying @Kts1816 there was a time when my life was structured around daily attendance of the mass. As you probably know your “spiritual life” and your personal relationship with Our Lord Jesus Christ evolve over time and you are probably at a point in your own pilgrimage.
I understand that attending mass I very pleasing and yes attendance helps us avoid sin it is a much better and holier activity than many others.
But please, consider that you are supposed -in your own time, sometime in the future- to find happiness and fulfillment in most if not all daily aspects of your life and with yourself. I wish you that you find peace and grow closer to Jesus in your daily life that you are permanently in His company and strengthened by Him can resist sin and be happy throughout the day.
Please, discuss your sadness with a priest and I hope he will guide you towards Jesus that you may be strengthened. The priest should not find it strange that you attend more than one mass a day. Most priests should understand your need and will. However, it is not easy to give spiritual guidance.
Please, try to understand that in meeting with Jesus the mass is the privileged place but you should not rely on the mass as a occupation of time or a means that simply avoids you sinning by being physically occupied and having your time taken up. You appreciate, I hope, that the mass is a means to an end, and the end is Our Lord Jesus. In the meanwhile, don’t feel bad about going to mass, at least if you find relieve there it surely is a much better activity than most others yet be reminded that you need to continue work and battle with all aspects of your daily life. Please, talk with a priest about this when you can.
God bless you on your pilgrimage @Kts1816