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lynnehelen
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I went for my lung capacity test today, and, unofficially, (he wasn’t supposed to say), although I am at the edge of the spectrum my test results fell in the NORMAL range. I could cross over into “mild” emphysema. I feel the Lord is calling me to quit and has been doing so for some time. I still think also that He is calling me to go to California, I’ll talk to you about it next time (…being here, for instance, has helped me to heal from the first abortion which I had here, the second I had in California, also I carried Ian there before the trip back East to Buffalo.)
I am hoping against hope that my son will come with me, he could go to UCLA or UC Riverside–he was receptive to the idea but asked me to ask his father, which I did, and as yet he has not responded.
I finally understand him. He had a heart attack ten years ago, had a stent put it, and then learned that those who are treated with stents have a life expectancy of ten years, more recent medical technology is better.
I really went through it, the “quandary that terminal illness presents to the mind” (I went to a website that had a good article)–not being able to think to the future–it was horrible, I thought I was dying some time soon anyway and you gave me hope and then I had this news. I call to mind the words from the NT that we should never know the exact time of our death, and perhaps I have conveyed to you how much I mistrust the medical industry.
Anyway, just finished praying the Luminous Mysteries (so fitting! when Jesus was still living) and this has been a big step in progressing in faith. Many more small, and large ones to take, but now I don’t choke when I pray “I believe in the Holy Catholic Church…”
(this was an e-mail sent to my Project Rachel counselor)
:angel1::angel1::angel1:


Blessings…
Hail Mary, full of Grace, the Lord is with Thee.
Blessed art thou amongst women,
and Blessed is the Fruit of Thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God,
Pray for us sinners,
Now,
and at the hour of our death.
Amen.
I am hoping against hope that my son will come with me, he could go to UCLA or UC Riverside–he was receptive to the idea but asked me to ask his father, which I did, and as yet he has not responded.
I finally understand him. He had a heart attack ten years ago, had a stent put it, and then learned that those who are treated with stents have a life expectancy of ten years, more recent medical technology is better.
I really went through it, the “quandary that terminal illness presents to the mind” (I went to a website that had a good article)–not being able to think to the future–it was horrible, I thought I was dying some time soon anyway and you gave me hope and then I had this news. I call to mind the words from the NT that we should never know the exact time of our death, and perhaps I have conveyed to you how much I mistrust the medical industry.
Anyway, just finished praying the Luminous Mysteries (so fitting! when Jesus was still living) and this has been a big step in progressing in faith. Many more small, and large ones to take, but now I don’t choke when I pray “I believe in the Holy Catholic Church…”
(this was an e-mail sent to my Project Rachel counselor)
:angel1::angel1::angel1:
Blessings…
Hail Mary, full of Grace, the Lord is with Thee.
Blessed art thou amongst women,
and Blessed is the Fruit of Thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God,
Pray for us sinners,
Now,
and at the hour of our death.
Amen.