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Hello everyone, may the peace of our Lord Christ be with you all. I would like to share my experiences with you. If you can offer some insight or advise please do so. I have been a catholic all my life, but it wasn’t until about 8 months ago after a retreat that I really began to feel the presence of God in my life. Before this blessing entered my life I was very much under the influence of evil and I did not even realize it. The devil had successfully place a veil over my eyes. This retreat signifies the beginning of a new life for me. A life with God. Although I remain a sinner, through the Mercy and Grace of God I am able to return to the path of righteousness.
Shortly after my retreat I began experiencing what most would call “sleep paralysis”.
The first one I can remember occured about 7and 1/2 months ago a few days after going on a weekend retreat. I believe that these experiences indeed stem from the frustration of our enemy (the devil) because of our spiritual growth. I can’t say exactly how many of these experiences I have had, but I would say around ten or so. They always occur in the middle of the night as I am laying in my bed. They usually happen like this: I find myself awake in bed in the middle of the night and my heart begins to race, I feel something evil lurking. I feel terrified, shortly after i cannot move any part of my body (maybe I can move my eyes I’m not sure). I try proclaiming the name Jesus, but I cannot move my lips or make a sound. I definitely feel I am battling an evil presence. On one occasion I heard and evil snarl coming from behind my ear. It was like the growling of an angry wolf or dog. On another night I began to hear a voice. At first I thought it could be my father in another room who might have woken up, but I quickly realized that it was coming from within my room. It was coming from above me near the ceiling. I could not make out what it was saying because it was a foreign language. I knew it was challenging my faith and it was all lies. Whenever this happens to me I medidate on the Lord Jesus and the words,“I will fear no evil” along with other prayers. The spirit finds Jesus in my heart and flees in utter confusion. I have found the rosary is a strong weapon against the influence of the devil. On the days I fail to pray it, I begin to feel temptations I thought I had ridded myself of. It is then that I realize it is only through the Grace of God and our Blessed Mother that I was able to overcome these temptations. For anyone with similar experiences I reccommend getting St Benedict’s cross and having it blessed by a priest. Holy water is really good too.
At first I was confused with why God would let me suffer these experiences. What was the point? But recently I have realized that the Will of God is not always sensible or clear to us humans. Maybe when we experience a small taste of evil, it makes us cherish the Lord and His Goodness even more. I now consider myself privileged to suffer this small inconvenience for Christ, who gave His life for us. May God bless us all.
Shortly after my retreat I began experiencing what most would call “sleep paralysis”.
The first one I can remember occured about 7and 1/2 months ago a few days after going on a weekend retreat. I believe that these experiences indeed stem from the frustration of our enemy (the devil) because of our spiritual growth. I can’t say exactly how many of these experiences I have had, but I would say around ten or so. They always occur in the middle of the night as I am laying in my bed. They usually happen like this: I find myself awake in bed in the middle of the night and my heart begins to race, I feel something evil lurking. I feel terrified, shortly after i cannot move any part of my body (maybe I can move my eyes I’m not sure). I try proclaiming the name Jesus, but I cannot move my lips or make a sound. I definitely feel I am battling an evil presence. On one occasion I heard and evil snarl coming from behind my ear. It was like the growling of an angry wolf or dog. On another night I began to hear a voice. At first I thought it could be my father in another room who might have woken up, but I quickly realized that it was coming from within my room. It was coming from above me near the ceiling. I could not make out what it was saying because it was a foreign language. I knew it was challenging my faith and it was all lies. Whenever this happens to me I medidate on the Lord Jesus and the words,“I will fear no evil” along with other prayers. The spirit finds Jesus in my heart and flees in utter confusion. I have found the rosary is a strong weapon against the influence of the devil. On the days I fail to pray it, I begin to feel temptations I thought I had ridded myself of. It is then that I realize it is only through the Grace of God and our Blessed Mother that I was able to overcome these temptations. For anyone with similar experiences I reccommend getting St Benedict’s cross and having it blessed by a priest. Holy water is really good too.
At first I was confused with why God would let me suffer these experiences. What was the point? But recently I have realized that the Will of God is not always sensible or clear to us humans. Maybe when we experience a small taste of evil, it makes us cherish the Lord and His Goodness even more. I now consider myself privileged to suffer this small inconvenience for Christ, who gave His life for us. May God bless us all.