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This particular part of scripture has always worried me.
"That servant who knew his master’s will but did not make preparations nor act in accord with his will shall be beaten severely; and the servant who was ignorant of his master’s will but acted in a way deserving of a severe beating shall be beaten only lightly. Much will be required of the person entrusted with much, and still more will be demanded of the person entrusted with more."
Question: I have been entrusted with much (perhaps even “more”) and have been severely and persistently tried and accosted throughout my lifetime. This latest trial was the greatest, the hardest to live through, but I am doing it. I was up last night in the middle of the night recounting my life (I am now a “young” 66, yeah not to you kids but to anyone over 50 you know what I mean LOL). It has been quite complex and extremely difficult and I have made grave errors (at the time, "ignorant of my master’s will) but I have always had a strong connection to God and especially the Blessed Mother. What do I make of this lifelong testing? There are times I feel victimized, “picked on”, even “cursed” (God forbid). Then there are times I see the enormous good I have done even in the face of incredible obstacles and I think perhaps God intended me to BE a certain thing and is bringing me forward to that goal. Does this even remotely resonate with anyone? What am I to make of this: the test I am “passing”, a punishment for a wrong choice, following the will of God or totally unable to discern it? I have a spiritual adviser/confessor. He is not a leading Jesuit philosopher, he doesn’t have the answers to these questions. So, what to do, how to determine what is of God and what is not and how to proceed? Any ideas?
"That servant who knew his master’s will but did not make preparations nor act in accord with his will shall be beaten severely; and the servant who was ignorant of his master’s will but acted in a way deserving of a severe beating shall be beaten only lightly. Much will be required of the person entrusted with much, and still more will be demanded of the person entrusted with more."
Question: I have been entrusted with much (perhaps even “more”) and have been severely and persistently tried and accosted throughout my lifetime. This latest trial was the greatest, the hardest to live through, but I am doing it. I was up last night in the middle of the night recounting my life (I am now a “young” 66, yeah not to you kids but to anyone over 50 you know what I mean LOL). It has been quite complex and extremely difficult and I have made grave errors (at the time, "ignorant of my master’s will) but I have always had a strong connection to God and especially the Blessed Mother. What do I make of this lifelong testing? There are times I feel victimized, “picked on”, even “cursed” (God forbid). Then there are times I see the enormous good I have done even in the face of incredible obstacles and I think perhaps God intended me to BE a certain thing and is bringing me forward to that goal. Does this even remotely resonate with anyone? What am I to make of this: the test I am “passing”, a punishment for a wrong choice, following the will of God or totally unable to discern it? I have a spiritual adviser/confessor. He is not a leading Jesuit philosopher, he doesn’t have the answers to these questions. So, what to do, how to determine what is of God and what is not and how to proceed? Any ideas?
