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Ive been talking With my grandparents and my beloved aunt about my interest in finding out more about Catholicism a several of times in the last 6 months, but I have allways refered to Catholics as “THEY” and it has been ok for them as long as I have kept a distance between catholisicm and myself.
Well tonight once again the subject occured when I visited them for a cup of coffee.
I said that Ive been to mass and they where quit ok With it.
As the conversation went on they started to talk quit negative about Our Pope Francis and Our Blessed mother Mary, usually Ive just said Im not interessted in talking about it when they start their negative attitude, but today I just got a bit annoyed and started to defend MY faith.
When I reffered to the Catholic faith as my own the atmosphere changed in a split secound. My Grandma (who I love so much) where on the edge of crying and stopped talking for a long time.
My aunt had this look at me, as Im now doomed becouse Im a part of The popes Church. (They dont like the Pope and the Vatican to much)
It hurts to see them like this
I am 100 per cent sure that the Holy Spirit are guiding me into the Church so I AM going to convert next spring, but its so painful to see that they think Im not going to heaven.
it tears me apart
I pray for them in every mass, for their well being and for God to open their eyes and lead them to the Church, but it seems highly unlikely that they will ever convert.
The worst thing about this is that I have a strong feeling of vocation to either the Dominicans or the Franciscans. I am so worried about how they will take it if Im going to enter a order.
I now its several years until I have to take that desition, but nevertheless it scares me to even think about it. I will live my life as the Lord requires of me and my own feelings will not be important when I will make my desition, but its difficult.
When I am saying this. I have to praise the Lord for giving me such a wonderful Family and Im so lucky to have both parrents supporting my choise to convert to catholisicm.
I dont know why Im even posting this. I just need to release some pressure I think…
If anyone has some similar experience please share it with me.
God Bless you all!
Well tonight once again the subject occured when I visited them for a cup of coffee.
I said that Ive been to mass and they where quit ok With it.
As the conversation went on they started to talk quit negative about Our Pope Francis and Our Blessed mother Mary, usually Ive just said Im not interessted in talking about it when they start their negative attitude, but today I just got a bit annoyed and started to defend MY faith.
When I reffered to the Catholic faith as my own the atmosphere changed in a split secound. My Grandma (who I love so much) where on the edge of crying and stopped talking for a long time.
My aunt had this look at me, as Im now doomed becouse Im a part of The popes Church. (They dont like the Pope and the Vatican to much)
It hurts to see them like this
I am 100 per cent sure that the Holy Spirit are guiding me into the Church so I AM going to convert next spring, but its so painful to see that they think Im not going to heaven.
it tears me apart
I pray for them in every mass, for their well being and for God to open their eyes and lead them to the Church, but it seems highly unlikely that they will ever convert.
The worst thing about this is that I have a strong feeling of vocation to either the Dominicans or the Franciscans. I am so worried about how they will take it if Im going to enter a order.
I now its several years until I have to take that desition, but nevertheless it scares me to even think about it. I will live my life as the Lord requires of me and my own feelings will not be important when I will make my desition, but its difficult.
When I am saying this. I have to praise the Lord for giving me such a wonderful Family and Im so lucky to have both parrents supporting my choise to convert to catholisicm.
I dont know why Im even posting this. I just need to release some pressure I think…
If anyone has some similar experience please share it with me.
God Bless you all!