Growing closer to God

[Anglewannabe]

For a long time now, I have been doing a lot of things to grow closer to God, such as going to adoration, reading the bible etc. I have been doing a lot of ‘choosing to forgive’ not forgiving because it feels good.

Lately, God has given me some insight. It has dawned on me that the reason I still have so much anger towards someone is not only because of his cruel actions but also, somehow I ended up believing I owned his baggage and God showed me it was not my job to fix it but this persons choice what to do with it. I must admit, it was not a possibility I would have considered in the past. I see it as a good indication of something for me to work on.

However, my day to day life is not any easier or happier. I am trying to let go of my agenda of all the things I think would make me happier and trying to hear what God’s will is for me. However, as much as God gave me the insight mentioned above, I still do not hear His will any more clearer.

And I sure do not trust Him anymore. It is down right confusing to clearly hear His voice, yet still feel so lost

Any insight or stories of similar experiences would be appreciated

Angie

 

[oldgraymare2]

Hi Angie,

Have you thought about talking to your pastor or parish priest about your struggles with your feelings towards God? That is what I would do if I were you.

I would also consider some spiritual direction, too. With spiritual direction, we look at our relationship with God in our life. Your pastor/priest may be able to recommend someone to you, if he is unable to be a spiritual director for you.

When I was experiencing some difficult times in my life, I went for some spiritual direction at various times. The first time I went to see a nun who was a spiritual director, and the second time I went to see my pastor.

I am sorry for your struggles, and for how you are feeling.

Prayers said for you. God bless you.

 

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For a long time now, I have been doing a lot of things to grow closer to God, such as going to adoration, reading the bible etc. I have been doing a lot of ‘choosing to forgive’ not forgiving because it feels good.

Lately, God has given me some insight. It has dawned on me that the reason I still have so much anger towards someone is not only because of his cruel actions but also, somehow I ended up believing I owned his baggage and God showed me it was not my job to fix it but this persons choice what to do with it. I must admit, it was not a possibility I would have considered in the past. I see it as a good indication of something for me to work on.

However, my day to day life is not any easier or happier. I am trying to let go of my agenda of all the things I think would make me happier and trying to hear what God’s will is for me. However, as much as God gave me the insight mentioned above, I still do not hear His will any more clearer.

And I sure do not trust Him anymore. It is down right confusing to clearly hear His voice, yet still feel so lost

Any insight or stories of similar experiences would be appreciated

Angie

God’s Will is that you obey His commandments and perform your duties of your state in life well, and that you be saved. His Will is really is that simple. God bless you.

 

[silver2soul]

Sometimes we have to just listen. We are so tuned to the fact of every day living that discerning the spiritual side in connection with GOD through his son JESUS can sometimes become overwhelming.

Sometimes we feel lost because the enemy wants us to feel lost. Hopelessness or other emotions sometimes are amplified or influenced by the enemy. The enemy has encamped and sometimes we allow it in!! We mustn allow that to happen by resistance, truth and love. and allowing GOD work in our lives.

Praise be to GOD the heavenly father and his son JESUS forever.