Has this ever happened to you? Three times already I’ve spooked myself. Twice I was talking with co-workers that are not Catholic nor do they attend church. After a while of listening to them talk, I became frightened. It’s as if the content of their talk suddenly scared me. Then today, I was reading some Holloween poetry, and again I became frightened. I do pray everyday including praying to St. Michael and do attend mass. I try to think about Jesus and Mary in everything I do. Sometimes I can tell who has Jesus in their life and who doesn’t just by listening to what they talk about. Should I increase my prayers including prayers for my co-workers?
There was one stage I went through where I was going through a lot, think I was beginning to become a little bit unbalanced, mentally and emotionally.
Anyway, I thought I couldn’t be around people that were sort of like how you describe.
However, since I’ve become more stable, I can be around all kinds of people, with the faith, without and in all kinds of situations. Some I would choose to be around more, some not.
Still, I’m stronger where I can now withstand it if they aren’t as pure and holy, because I see it as them, not me.
Fewer things scare me, now. I have one student who used to be in a street gang, and he still has some tendencies in that line. I can even be with him.
I believe that now, if anything, I’m in a better position to be of help. I am more aware what is them and what’s me. What is them, I don’t take personally. I work with people also who have some mental problems. Again, I’ve had some, in the past, I’ve had one say some really awful things to me. I don’t take ANY of it personally any more.
I am clear…“That’s them…this is me”. They can actually even insult me, and I can often have it roll right off me, because I don’t allow any of that enter me. It’s as if I shield myself.
By not becoming easily scared, hurt, I am MUCH stronger helping them. They could cuss me out, and I could look at them, blink, ask them if they’re having a bad day!
