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ClearWater
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Gosh! What a year!
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JamesTheJust
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Well, someone speaking to you in person can help you better than we ever could. Is it possible for you to talk to a (preferably Catholic) therapist?
I’m sorry you’ve had such a terrible cross to carry- but don’t lose hope!
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ClearWater
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I’m sorry you gave your virginity to someone who could care less, Norm.
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ClearWater
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Not all women are like that, but unfortunately, too many are nowadays. That’s why it’s best to wait till marriage.
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Norm640
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A therapist gets paid to hear your problems. He doesn’t care. And thus it misses the real problem. I am alone. Seeing a therapist will not only make me feel more alone, but crazy. I’ve been like this since I was 19…I am just tired of it. Hence me wanting to die. I don’t even care where I go…but I don’t like hot weather…that was a little joke…
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GEddie
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Not me.
I hate the idea of being dead!
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I hate the idea of being dead!
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ClearWater
Guest
It depends on the counselor. I’ve had one really good one, but too bad she was in the US. I’m in Mexico. I understand what you mean. You want someone who CARES!
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JamesTheJust
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How about family members? Could you talk to them?
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ClearWater
Guest
Well, you want to be dead, because you think the pain will stop after you’re dead, that things could actually be better, that you could experience happiness, love, belonging, caring, closeness, God, hope, joy, peace…none of which you can experience here.
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JamesTheJust
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We can experience those things here, though.
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ClearWater
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All you probably feel is sadness, loneliness, pain, hopelessness, despair. You probably can’t find one reason to get up in the morning…feeling a lack of purpose.
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JamesTheJust
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But there is a purpose: to serve God, and to experience His Divine majesty!
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esieffe
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Speaking of low places…
Wow, I just got off the phone with my cousin. I have never married because I have aspergers, and while it is hard to tell if your just an acquaintance, if you lived with me… and yes dated me, you would know. This is a condition that can and will run in a family, so the best offers I have ever had have been offers to “shack up.” No one wants to marry someone on the spectrum and have kids who might end up with this or worse, so Im not married, and I don’t shack up. [Yes! Its true! Chastity IS possible!!!:banghead: ]
My cousin [a Catholic in good standing with doctrine and God] is gay, so he rents the basement apartment from me. Well he has had a drinking problem, so when he got to Ohio to see my aunt, uncle and others. His stepmom saw a bottle and told him he wasn’t welcome for Christmas anymore and to get out. So he went to another Cousin’s house.
He is very upset and depressed. I can’t see my folks until he gets back [no one to take care of the dogs] My family tree must be a hickory, cause it is full of nuts. I am defending gay people on the forum here all the time, because, while I cant know for a 100%, he IS chaste, he is a Christian, and he is not a sinful sicko per**** that people talk about in the forums from time to time.
Even tonight there was a guy in the forums calling gay people per***ts. I don’t even have that problem, put he grew up having to deal with all of this hate. I wish he was straight because he would have made a great dad.
I wish my church owned a hotel, I would be there now. It’s a huge Church, full of love. Imagine that, a Catholic mega church full of love. The pastoral staff is incredible! It feels like Christmas land right now. I go there by myself, I wish I had a family. But everyone is afraid how my “rug rats” would turn out.
Believe it or not, I am not too depressed right now, I just feel bad for cuz. [Cousin]
Merry Christmas everyone. Im going to kill some zombies on my computer!
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Beryllos
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I doubt it is sinful to pray for God to take you from this life, if you pray in humility (not self-centered) and with the intention of submitting to his will. In Tobit 3, both Tobit and Sarah pray for death. Sarah’s prayer is a beautiful example for us:
“Blessed are you, merciful God!
Blessed is your name forever;
let all your works praise you forever.
And now, Lord, I turn my face to you,
and raise my eyes toward you.
Command that I be released from the earth
and not listen to such reproaches any more.
You know, O Master, that I am innocent
of any defilement with a man,
and that I have not disgraced my name
or the name of my father in the land of my exile.
I am my father’s only child;
he has no other child to be his heir;
and he has no close relative or other kindred
for whom I should keep myself as wife.
Already seven husbands of mine have died.
Why should I still live?
But if it is not pleasing to you, O Lord, to take my life,
hear me in my disgrace.”
God did hear her prayer and Tobit’s, but he did not grant them an early death as they had asked. He had other plans for them. Could it be that God has another plan for you?
“Blessed are you, merciful God!
Blessed is your name forever;
let all your works praise you forever.
And now, Lord, I turn my face to you,
and raise my eyes toward you.
Command that I be released from the earth
and not listen to such reproaches any more.
You know, O Master, that I am innocent
of any defilement with a man,
and that I have not disgraced my name
or the name of my father in the land of my exile.
I am my father’s only child;
he has no other child to be his heir;
and he has no close relative or other kindred
for whom I should keep myself as wife.
Already seven husbands of mine have died.
Why should I still live?
But if it is not pleasing to you, O Lord, to take my life,
hear me in my disgrace.”
God did hear her prayer and Tobit’s, but he did not grant them an early death as they had asked. He had other plans for them. Could it be that God has another plan for you?
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JamesTheJust
Guest
What a great post. It is true, some don’t recognize that we are called to be a hospital for sinners, not a museum for the righteous. We all sin terribly in some way.
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ClearWater
Guest
Book of Tobit, my FAVORITE book of the Bible! Good choice, and good quote!
Eiseffe, sorry it’s been rough on you! Yeah, that is a lot!
Listening to everybody makes me feel actually pretty good! I mean, my problems seem less, now, compared to some others.
Eiseffe, sorry it’s been rough on you! Yeah, that is a lot!
Listening to everybody makes me feel actually pretty good! I mean, my problems seem less, now, compared to some others.
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ClearWater
Guest
Try not to laugh, but right now, you have all made me feel happy!
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ClearWater
Guest
I think I enjoy it when people let their guards down, allow themselves to trust, be so vulnerable, open. I consider it a tremendous honor, actually, makes me feel quite good.
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ClearWater
Guest
I have had a very difficult couple of years. I moved to Mexico after a divorce/annulment. I have a disability and didn’t know how I’d make it, live on my income, in the US. So, I moved here, but it was quite expensive. I went through a lot in a short period of time.
I was in the ER 4 times last year, seemingly because I accidentally forgot where I was and drank the water.
I have been unable to find people I feel I can connect with, emotionally/mentally. People here are into their families. It’s very hard as an outsider, a foreigner, to break into this culture. Where I am here, is even more difficult. Even other Mexicans have commented on how closed this place is to even outsiders, let alone foreigners.
So, I feel very alone, isolated. I don’t feel belonging. I don’t fit in. Feel like people don’t care.
I also need 2 ankle fusions. Medicine here is a bit primitive. Hospitals often don’t even have toilet paper or soap for us. We need to bring our own stuff.
Once, years ago, I was very sick…after drinking bad water during a 7.6 earthquake. I had a parasite AND a bacteria. Went to the hospital, felt like I was dying. They wanted to admit me. I had health insurance, but there were no beds! So, they did their best, sent me home!
I once saw a friend stitched up…NO anesthesia. Crazy place!
I was in the ER 4 times last year, seemingly because I accidentally forgot where I was and drank the water.
I have been unable to find people I feel I can connect with, emotionally/mentally. People here are into their families. It’s very hard as an outsider, a foreigner, to break into this culture. Where I am here, is even more difficult. Even other Mexicans have commented on how closed this place is to even outsiders, let alone foreigners.
So, I feel very alone, isolated. I don’t feel belonging. I don’t fit in. Feel like people don’t care.
I also need 2 ankle fusions. Medicine here is a bit primitive. Hospitals often don’t even have toilet paper or soap for us. We need to bring our own stuff.
Once, years ago, I was very sick…after drinking bad water during a 7.6 earthquake. I had a parasite AND a bacteria. Went to the hospital, felt like I was dying. They wanted to admit me. I had health insurance, but there were no beds! So, they did their best, sent me home!
I once saw a friend stitched up…NO anesthesia. Crazy place!
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ClearWater
Guest
The loneliness is perhaps the worst suffering of all.
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