The Secular Mind by Robert Coles pp162 Interview by Robert Coles. I’m afraid – I’m really afraid that going to church and praying will become an automatic thing with me. I’m afraid I‘ll be going through the motions – that I won’t be thinking, or be myself praying – that I’ll be half conscious, daydreaming. …I’ll never forget what happened to some of my dear friends who became Communists (in the 1930s). I’m not here to “red-bait”, I never did. I could see then , and still can , why they chose as they did . But I saw their minds get swept up, get swept away. They criticized people for getting swept up by capitalist materialism, and then they got swept up by another kind of materialism. They seemed to loose all their independence; they said what they were supposed to say - I would be talking to them, and could almost predict, word for word, what I’d hear coming out of their mouth! It was scary to me – not that I would necessarily disagree with what they were trying to get at . It was the automatic way they spoke, the instant replies, with the words and
phrases I’d been hearing for years. I recall one of my friends speaking like that – I¬ recall thinking afterwards: he’s lost, his mind is gone; its no longer his mind, it belongs to the party, and its spokesmen, and to what’s decided by them, the higher - ups, here and abroad. I’m not talking about “discipline”, here; I’m talking about believing something, the faith that you must take your orders in what you say or do , that you are not really responsible for anything on your own, but only as part of something larger, called Communism, and your life is to be put on the line for that [ideology] , in a manner that others decide, and you are in a holding pattern: you wait for those others to tell you what to do.
…I’m just saying that anything is possible for any of us, that we can take religion or politics or some set of ideas, and end up living in such a way that we lose all sense of who we are – our minds no longer belong to us. ( sorry, don’t quite know how to operate this thing!)