Reflecting on the distinct persons of the Holy Trinity helped me grow in desire to not offend God, may it also help you:
Sure, God, as the beginning and the end of all things, is perfectly content in himself and nothing we can do will take away any of that. However, the offenses against God that caused God to become man to help man become God causes great pain to God made man, Jesus. And since God creates us to be perfectly content as he is perfectly content, then every time we sin, we limit the presence of the Holy Spirit in each of us, thereby offending God and hurting our own self.
Can you feel peace from knowing your sin causes the agony of Jesus? I can’t.
Perhaps consider that is not indifference on behalf of God, rather it is indifference on your behalf to not know and love God on a more personal level.
May the light of Christ help you overcome your struggles in perceiving the horrible consequences of sin, and may the peace of Christ be with you always.
