Havn't prayed for 4 weeks

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Tried to find God in my hardest times. Trying to overcome suicidal feelings, a personality disorder, rheumatism. Trying not to care about my skin ilness, trying to find my place.

But couldn’t find anyone. So here I was all alone, used to pray and pray but nothing happened. Couldn’t find God, can’t understand the catholics that praise his name. Because I never felt God, I need him though to heal the scars and wounds that run all trough my spirit. My soul is broken, my body is a source of pain and I don’t know where to go to.

What to do how to pray again after not seeing God for this long. I tried to burn novena candles but couldn’t fill the prayers I always did it once or twice and then quit praying at the candle.

When I used to pray with my novena’s nothing happened and I burned them a whole lot. All my prayers seem to not reach God or be ignored.
 
I am sorry things are so difficult Please start praying again and go to mass. Ask the Blessed Mother for help. Sometimes we can’t feel God. But he is still here and still loves us.

Mother Mary, please intercede for Meemai. Ask the Lord to heal his wounds and illnesses, pour out his grace upon him, and fill him with love and peace. Amen.

Hail, holy Queen, Mother of mercy, hail, our life, our sweetness and our hope. To thee do we cry, poor banished children of Eve: to thee do we send up our sighs, mourning and weeping in this valley of tears. Turn then, most gracious Advocate, thine eyes of mercy toward us, and after this our exile, show unto us the blessed fruit of thy womb, Jesus, O merciful, O loving, O sweet Virgin Mary! Amen.
 
Meemai said:
Tried to find God in my hardest times. Trying to overcome suicidal feelings, a personality disorder, rheumatism. Trying not to care about my skin ilness, trying to find my place.

But couldn’t find anyone. So here I was all alone, used to pray and pray but nothing happened. Couldn’t find God, can’t understand the catholics that praise his name. Because I never felt God, I need him though to heal the scars and wounds that run all trough my spirit. My soul is broken, my body is a source of pain and I don’t know where to go to.

What to do how to pray again after not seeing God for this long. I tried to burn novena candles but couldn’t fill the prayers I always did it once or twice and then quit praying at the candle.

When I used to pray with my novena’s nothing happened and I burned them a whole lot. All my prayers seem to not reach God or be ignored.
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mmhh something’s going on here! This might be a good sign 🙂 Sounds like a time of renewal to me. Make sure you roots grow strong enough so that G-d can take you out of your current dirt and plant you somewhere else. May He bless you abundantly 🙂

Please keep us posted. I will come back to this thread if you don’t and bump it to remind you 🙂
 
Prayers are never ignored just not always answered as we expect at a time we expect.

Maybe your best prayer now is just:

“Help me.”

and then silence & listening to your heart.

God bless you who has obviously started your healing already +

Peace be with you+
 
Memorare
REMEMBER, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to thy protection, implored thy help, or sought thy intercession was left unaided. Inspired with this confidence, I fly to thee, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother; to thee do I come; before thee I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in thy mercy hear and answer me. Amen.
 
Mere words may not be able to convey the love and concern of the one writing them, but here goes. There have been times when I felt like God was ignoring me, too. There have been times when I prayed not to wake up in the morning. By His grace, I haven’t had a day like that in many years.

I will definitely keep you in my prayers. God gives each of us a cross to bear. You seem to have an especially heavy one. Maybe this is because you have a tremendous strength within you which you have yet to discover. I believe one of the real blessings of being Catholic is having so many rituals that we can practice which provide us with grace whether we feel it or not. Resolve yourself to pray a least one Rosary per day plus perhaps a Chaplet of Divine Mercy. Go to Mass on Sunday and during the week if you’re physically capable.

Please continue to let us know how you’re doing. Ask for prayers as often as you wish. You are a child of God and He loves you, as He loves each of us, far beyond our comprehension. May the Spirit of Christ bring you His peace.

Yours in Jesus through Mary,

Tom
 
Meemai said:
Tried to find God in my hardest times. Trying to overcome suicidal feelings, a personality disorder, rheumatism. Trying not to care about my skin ilness, trying to find my place.

But couldn’t find anyone. So here I was all alone, used to pray and pray but nothing happened. Couldn’t find God, can’t understand the catholics that praise his name. Because I never felt God, I need him though to heal the scars and wounds that run all trough my spirit. My soul is broken, my body is a source of pain and I don’t know where to go to.

What to do how to pray again after not seeing God for this long. I tried to burn novena candles but couldn’t fill the prayers I always did it once or twice and then quit praying at the candle.

When I used to pray with my novena’s nothing happened and I burned them a whole lot. All my prayers seem to not reach God or be ignored.
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My soul is broken, my body is a source of pain and I don’t know where to go to.

In 2007 I felt exactly the same way and I stayed in it for about a year. Depression is a horrible thing but the Lord finally lifted me up-once I let him. I did take antidepressants for awhile and that helped but really it was God that I give the credit. I wasn’t going to church or anything at the time either. Now I’m attending RCIA, at first so I could learn about my husband’s faith and so we could raise our child in it-now I’m doing it for me. Someone else posted about catholics having rituals and customs that keep your faith alive even if the feelings aren’t there. That’s what I love about it, I have something I can grab onto when I’m depressed or whatever. It’s not dependent on my “feelings” because my “feelings” aren’t always realistic- I have some real neurotic stuff going on in my head at times. God can and will glorify himself in your weakness. We are all broken. I’ll pray for you…
 
Still can’t pray.

Parents are acting ****ed up and I wanna die.
 
I have been going through a hard time as well.

What helps me is just to talk to God. Tell Him how you feel. Don’t worry about formal prayers.

Read the Psalms. They are full of complaining and were written by people who hurt. You won’t offend God by telling Him how you feel. He already knows. He can help.
 
You may also need professional help. Please call your local help line or 1-800-suicide/1-800-784-2433 or 1-800-273-TALK/1-800-273-8255.
 
Meemai said:
Tried to find God in my hardest times. Trying to overcome suicidal feelings, a personality disorder, rheumatism. Trying not to care about my skin ilness, trying to find my place.

But couldn’t find anyone. So here I was all alone, used to pray and pray but nothing happened. Couldn’t find God, can’t understand the catholics that praise his name. Because I never felt God, I need him though to heal the scars and wounds that run all trough my spirit. My soul is broken, my body is a source of pain and I don’t know where to go to.

What to do how to pray again after not seeing God for this long. I tried to burn novena candles but couldn’t fill the prayers I always did it once or twice and then quit praying at the candle.

When I used to pray with my novena’s nothing happened and I burned them a whole lot. All my prayers seem to not reach God or be ignored.
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I do not have all of the disorders that you have but, I do have Aspergers Syndrome, depression, anxiety, panic attacks, and severe daily headaches/migraines. I have had times where I went long periods without much praying even though I definitely needed to pray. Would you perhaps be able to pray a few short prayers in the morning? I personally found it best to build up slowly. It is better to pray a few short heartfelt prayers everyday, than to attempt to pray a lot and end up quitting. Prayers offered. :gopray2:

Here are some of the morning prayers from Fr Lasance’s My Prayer Book:

ASPIRATIONS
In the name of the Father, + and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost. Amen.
Blessed be the Holy Trinity, One God, now and forever. Amen.
Glory to the Father, Who created me; glory to the Son, Who redeemed me; glory to the Holy Ghost; Who sanctifieth me.

ACT OF ADORATION AND THANKSGIVING
Almighty and eternal God, I adore Thee, and I thank Thee for all the benefits which Thou, in Thy infinite goodness and mercy, hast conferred upon me. I thank Thee especially for having preserved and protected me this night.

ACT OF FAITH
I believe in Thee, because Thou art Truth itself, and, as Thou hast revealed them to her, I believe all the sacred truths which the holy Catholic Church believes and teaches.

ACT OF HOPE
I hope in Thee, because Thou art omnipotent, most merciful, and faithful to Thy promises; I hope to obtain the pardon of my sins, the grace to live a holy life, to die a happy death, and to obtain life everlasting, through the merits of Jesus Christ, my Lord and Redeemer.

ACT OF LOVE
I love Thee with my whole heart, and above all things, because Thou art infinitely good; and for the love of Thee I love my neighbor as myself.

ACT OF SUPPLICATION
I beseech Thee most earnestly to bless me, that I may serve Thee faithfully this day by a perfect devotedness to all my duties and a steadfast adherence to all my promises and good resolutions.

ACT OF CONTRITION
I am truly sorry for having sinned because Thou art infinitely good and sin displeases Thee. I will avoid the occasions of sin and strive in all things to do Thy holy will.

ACT OF CONSECRATION
I wish to consecrate this day and all the days of my life to Thy honor and glory.
 
Mother Mary, please help Meemai to pray the prayers that have been offered by Zekariya.

Hail, holy Queen, Mother of mercy, hail, our life, our sweetness and our hope. To thee do we cry, poor banished children of Eve: to thee do we send up our sighs, mourning and weeping in this valley of tears. Turn then, most gracious Advocate, thine eyes of mercy toward us, and after this our exile, show unto us the blessed fruit of thy womb, Jesus, O merciful, O loving, O sweet Virgin Mary! Amen.
 
Be very close to Mary and pray your Rosary every day with confidence in her powerful mediation with her Son. She is your mother and feels your sorrow, and believe it or not, has been lessening your burdens all this time without your knowing it (without Mary your pain would be much worse!). She wants you to bring her all your pain and sorrows; and if you offer them up to her Son in union with His on the Cross for the salvation of souls or for the souls of purgatory, you will gain great merit for Heaven. There is no better prayer than suffering born patiently and lovingly for God. There is no better help then the Blessed Virgin Mary and her holy Rosary and valid Sacraments worthily received. Turn to Mary and the Rosary with trust, and ask Mary for her heart and dispositions. Keep your heart and hand in hers and keep your soul and body all pure for Jesus. God bless you.
 
God is kind & merciful.

He created us & knows all our needs, hopes and desires before we even utter or think of it.

God answers all prayers, it just may not be the answer you wanted. If God does not give you what you asked for in prayer it is because He wanted to give you something better. He does not grant us something that will be harmful to our soul.

God answers all prayers, in His time not ours. So, we have to always be patient & have that unlimited confidence & trust in Him.

God is faithful & His steadfast love endures forever. He wants us to also be faithful to Him, to love Him, not only during the good times but also during the most difficult times of our lives.

God does not give us more than we can bear. It is during the difficult moments of your life that you are closest to Him, at the foot of His Cross.

God wants us to love Him the way He needed to be loved, His way not ours.

God loves us with His endless love & desires for us to draw closer to Him.

Blessed Mother Teresa once said that “God cannot fill something that is full.”

Surrender all to Him so that He can heal you and fill you with His grace, His peace, His love, His mercy.

Draw closer to Him. Pray, read the Sacred Scriptures & receive the sacraments often. Spend time with Him in adoration. Allow Him to speak to you in the silence of your heart.

Entrust all to Our Blessed Mother Mary who will bring you closer to His Son.

Frequently go to confession & receive the most precious Body & Blood of Our Good Lord Jesus Christ in Holy Communion so that the very presence of the King of Kings & the Lord of Lords, God Himself, will be in you, heal you and will stay with you always. St. Pious X once said “If angels could envy they would envy us for Holy Communion.”

Always offer everything to Our Good Lord Jesus, through Our Mother Mary, in union with His suffering on the Cross so that all your suffering, everything that you do becomes infinite, meaningful & purposeful. So that you will be able to help other souls not only in your lifetime but until the end of time. So that everything that you do becomes an unceasing act of love, prayer, adoration, reparation, supplication to Our Good God.

May Our Good Lord Jesus continue to bless, keep, protect you and all always.

Praying for you and for all always.
 
God is with you even when you can’t pray. He loves you much more than you can imagine. He sees your struggles. Ask him for peace inside for you and for your family. Open your heart and listen to him. If you chant, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus–his name repeatedly, that may bring you comfort. Or Jesus help me or make one of your own.
This was suggested to me by a Spiritual Director at a retreat. I will be praying for you.
God bless you.
 
Meemai said:
Tried to find God in my hardest times. Trying to overcome suicidal feelings, a personality disorder, rheumatism. Trying not to care about my skin ilness, trying to find my place.

But couldn’t find anyone. So here I was all alone, used to pray and pray but nothing happened. Couldn’t find God, can’t understand the catholics that praise his name. Because I never felt God, I need him though to heal the scars and wounds that run all trough my spirit. My soul is broken, my body is a source of pain and I don’t know where to go to.

What to do how to pray again after not seeing God for this long. I tried to burn novena candles but couldn’t fill the prayers I always did it once or twice and then quit praying at the candle.

When I used to pray with my novena’s nothing happened and I burned them a whole lot. All my prayers seem to not reach God or be ignored.
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Have you ever stopped eating food for four weeks? Maybe stopped taking your medicines for four weeks or stopped doing what you like for four weeks: the glass of wine, the beer, the candy and chocolate the steak the shrimp the lasagna etc etc. no??

So why would we choose to not pray for four weeks?

I’ll tell you why…we have a life of the body and a life of instant gratification/pleasure. We don’t deprive ourselves of that. That would be crazy.

How is it that we don’t give our life of the spirit that same attention and our life of prayer the same attention that we do our bodies??

We take more care of the perishable part of our being and neglect the immortal part that will exist forever in Heaven or Hell.

When the demons are loosed from hell in the 3 days of darkness-what are you going to combat with?? Your life of the body and your life of pleasure? or your life of prayer and your life of the spirit?

I choose the latter-nurtured by the Sacracments of Confession and Communion. And, the Rosary everyday.
 
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