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ubcgirl
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As I work through things from my past, in therapy and prayer, God is making me face some hard truths… various types of abuse on both sides of my family. I can honestly say there has been a cycle of evil in both my mom and dad’s families for many generations. They tried their best to break the cycle, but didn’t get very far, and exposed me and my brothers to a lot. I have gone through tons of counselling in my past, but mostly CBT, and now at 30 years of age, I am starting the real work of sorting out the messiness. After dating my boyfriend for seven months, there were just too many unhealthy things I brought into our relationship, that I could no longer ignore my past. I thought I had been doing the right thing of moving forward, but that is what my family has done forever - sweep things under the rug.
Now I am having to face some very difficult things on my own… although I felt that God brought me and my boyfriend together (I had started another prayer thread for him, and for his healing, for all the troubles I’ve brought into his life since we started dating), I do not know our future together. I am just a few months away from graduating from a professional degree program, and have a good future ahead of me as an RN.
But I am scared to go into my past and face all the evil that has been there, and I fear it will be too much for me. So I ask for prayers, that I can face the pain, realize the truth, and heal the way God intends for me to heal… so that someday, I might be able to marry and have a healthier family than the one I was raised into, that I might break this cycle of evil that I was born into.
Thank you for your prayers.
Now I am having to face some very difficult things on my own… although I felt that God brought me and my boyfriend together (I had started another prayer thread for him, and for his healing, for all the troubles I’ve brought into his life since we started dating), I do not know our future together. I am just a few months away from graduating from a professional degree program, and have a good future ahead of me as an RN.
But I am scared to go into my past and face all the evil that has been there, and I fear it will be too much for me. So I ask for prayers, that I can face the pain, realize the truth, and heal the way God intends for me to heal… so that someday, I might be able to marry and have a healthier family than the one I was raised into, that I might break this cycle of evil that I was born into.
Thank you for your prayers.