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I have suffered as long as I can remember (since my teens at the least) from depression, ranging from severe symptoms (suicidal, mood swings teetering on bipolar) to ‘mild’. My confirmation saint is St. Dymphna, and I ‘chose’ her long in '83, long before I knew I had this illness. Even after returning to the Faith a year ago, I had some episodes, that weren’t as traumatic, but still exhibited signs deep enough that I needed treatment. However, the medicines are hard for me to take, as they make me have sometimes severe side effects (migraines, nausea, etc.). I haven’t taken any medicine in over 6 months because of the side effects, but obviously had, until recently, had some effects of depression.
Holidays and other family times have always been a stress trigger for me, and caused me great difficulty in dealing with my loved ones around me, which in turn made me hate myself for causing them pain. Hence, Christmas and such were difficult for me, because no matter how grateful I was for the gifts, or the joy of family, I still lashed out and made it difficult for everyone around me.
Late last fall, I attended my first ‘healing’ Mass; I received the anointing oil and blessing of the anointing of the sick, and I prayed to be healed of this illness. I didn’t ‘dwell’ on this, but I asked for the healing, and prayed about it, then put it out of my mind as far as not focusing on it.
Christmas arrived; my symptoms and more depression did not. I had a small moment, but it passed quickly; always before, it took a lot of time and pain recovering from it, for me and my family.
I realized recently that my life has almost been ‘normal’. Yes, this is the first Christmas where God was in my heart for the true meaning of Christmas in many, many years, but even before, when we were very close to the Faith and to God, I had these issues surface. This was the first Christmas where I was both close to God and since receiving the healing.
I truly believe that I have been healed. Whether this healing is a temporary reprieve, or a permanent one, I praise you Oh Lord! You are so Good, so Loving, so Wonderful. Thank you Father for this healing. Words cannot express what I’m feeling. Although not worthy, You have cured me of this illness for at least today, and, I pray, for all days forward. May I be an example to others of Your Love!
Holidays and other family times have always been a stress trigger for me, and caused me great difficulty in dealing with my loved ones around me, which in turn made me hate myself for causing them pain. Hence, Christmas and such were difficult for me, because no matter how grateful I was for the gifts, or the joy of family, I still lashed out and made it difficult for everyone around me.
Late last fall, I attended my first ‘healing’ Mass; I received the anointing oil and blessing of the anointing of the sick, and I prayed to be healed of this illness. I didn’t ‘dwell’ on this, but I asked for the healing, and prayed about it, then put it out of my mind as far as not focusing on it.
Christmas arrived; my symptoms and more depression did not. I had a small moment, but it passed quickly; always before, it took a lot of time and pain recovering from it, for me and my family.
I realized recently that my life has almost been ‘normal’. Yes, this is the first Christmas where God was in my heart for the true meaning of Christmas in many, many years, but even before, when we were very close to the Faith and to God, I had these issues surface. This was the first Christmas where I was both close to God and since receiving the healing.
I truly believe that I have been healed. Whether this healing is a temporary reprieve, or a permanent one, I praise you Oh Lord! You are so Good, so Loving, so Wonderful. Thank you Father for this healing. Words cannot express what I’m feeling. Although not worthy, You have cured me of this illness for at least today, and, I pray, for all days forward. May I be an example to others of Your Love!