I have a problem with conventional images of heaven. I see heaven as being one with God,not having wings and living in a garden. Its more like a drop of rain that falls and becomes one with the ocean. I believe that my belief is the same as the great Catholic mystics and saints.
1 Corinthians 13:12
Brother Wittgenstein
I believe that your understanding of heaven is correct. It is not a place but a state of being and we experience a partial foretaste of it right now when we live in the will of God fom moment to moment:
“…Heaven is not a place and cannot be found on a map; rather it is where God’s will is done…”
*** - Pope Benedict XVI***
Therefore brother Alan is completely correct also.
Many Catholic mystics did use the image of a drop of water dissolving in an ocean to describe the state of union with God that we experience in this life and more fully in the next.
It is important to stress though that this does not mean that our soul ceases to exist.
We become by grace what God is by nature, partakers of the Divine Nature, seeing God without veil or intermediary in the Beatific Vision, the direct vision of the Essence of God. We do not become absorbed into the Essence and lose our creaturely identity. We see it without veil but it is so vast that Blessed Jacopone describes it as a “
sea without a shore…without colour or hue”. He says that we “never touch bottom”, that is we can never posses fully or understand fully the Divine Essence to the extent that we become God as he is in Himself, unknowable. Saint Faustina describes it as being akin to a tiny vessel or vase trying to contain the atlantic ocean. It is impossible.
Blessed Ruusbroec described it as being like “breathing”, we simultaenously and eternally experience ourself as both creature and distinct from God, as Lover gazing eternally into Beloved; and also we experience a “union of indistinction with God” in which we have completely lost all awareness of self and feel no difference between our “I” and God’s divinity to the extent that Saint Catherine of Genoa says, “My I is God”. We become divine by participation yet also retaining our human nature and rational soul. We always remain distinct from God in essence or substance, whilst we also feel no difference between God and ourselves on another level.
That might sound paradoxical but the mystics explain that it is beyond human intellect to comprehend. Cardinal Nicholas of Cusa back in the 1400s explained that “God is the coincidence of opposites”. Thus Saint John of the Cross said:
**St John of the Cross, Verses on the Ecstasy of Deep Contemplation
**
I was left there so absorbed,
so entranced, and so removed,
that my senses were abroad,
robbed of all sensation proved,
and my spirit then was moved
with an unknown knowing,
all knowledge there transcending.
This is also a state beyond time and place. We must relinquish any attempt to understand it through our cognition, our human intellectual knowledge. As the Sufis say, “
the mind is the slayer of the Real”.
Blessed Suso says that it can only be experienced intuitively through the grace of God.