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Good Morning wonderful community. I have a question. First of all, I am a male of 30 years old in graduate school. About to finish my Ph.D. this December. I have been in school for some time now and my program is very stressful, I have been a catholic all my life but like we all, have had my fair share of struggles.
I have been experiencing strange things lately in that I find myself comparing myself to everyone and all other people and feeling inadequate. The Lord has blessed me with so much and I don’t know how to let go of these horrible feelings of inadequacy. I was in a few relationships last year that did not work out so I am wondering if it is stemming from that.
I have been trying to receive graces and to stay in the state of grace as in frequenting confession and receiving communion. I have been saying the Auxilium Christianorum prayers every morning day to day and before I sleep however I have not been alleviated from negative thoughts and feelings. I have researched and wondered if I am suffering from Acedia. I have started praying Psalm 90 as I heard it is a wonderful aid against Acedia and the noonday devil. I want to increase my novenas, however it just seems like the more I pray…the more I try to walk the narrow path. THE HARDER EVERYTHING seems to be.
Don’t get me wrong I would never do anything to hurt or harm myself, but I have been getting negative intrusive thoughts in that department so I am implementing the Brief of Saint Anthony in case that comes about. I am GRATEFUL for the life and to be alive and for what Jesus Christ has done for me. He died for me on the cross. Why am I feeling so terrible.
I find that at night time these feelings are extremely alleviated but once the morning hits, the negative thoughts and chatters assail my mind. I am in a state of grace. How do I restore my joy?
May God pray for you all and keep me in your prayers!
I have been experiencing strange things lately in that I find myself comparing myself to everyone and all other people and feeling inadequate. The Lord has blessed me with so much and I don’t know how to let go of these horrible feelings of inadequacy. I was in a few relationships last year that did not work out so I am wondering if it is stemming from that.
I have been trying to receive graces and to stay in the state of grace as in frequenting confession and receiving communion. I have been saying the Auxilium Christianorum prayers every morning day to day and before I sleep however I have not been alleviated from negative thoughts and feelings. I have researched and wondered if I am suffering from Acedia. I have started praying Psalm 90 as I heard it is a wonderful aid against Acedia and the noonday devil. I want to increase my novenas, however it just seems like the more I pray…the more I try to walk the narrow path. THE HARDER EVERYTHING seems to be.
Don’t get me wrong I would never do anything to hurt or harm myself, but I have been getting negative intrusive thoughts in that department so I am implementing the Brief of Saint Anthony in case that comes about. I am GRATEFUL for the life and to be alive and for what Jesus Christ has done for me. He died for me on the cross. Why am I feeling so terrible.
I find that at night time these feelings are extremely alleviated but once the morning hits, the negative thoughts and chatters assail my mind. I am in a state of grace. How do I restore my joy?
May God pray for you all and keep me in your prayers!