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the past two years ive been dealing with some strange things in my life… it all started when my own family introduced me to a witch/phrophet he had told me it was white magic that it was a good kind… at that time i was depressed and all i wanted to be was happy, i didnt know what i was getting myself into… but something was off about what i was doing, at night time something always woke me up… so i told the guy i dont want to be involved with “elegua” anymore, but he insisted i don’t leave but i stopped anyway … something was off about it… i got closer to god and our lady of the cloud… from what my intuation told me at the time i had recieved a miracle… i would see the guy around and he was scared and put on his hoody while he passed by me… god was next to me is what i had in mind … then idk days passed and something was off i kept getting signs that i was cursed and my so called friend told me i was cursed too … i didn’t really believe it … but then i started noticing people in the streets giving me a bad look and even some people would make the cross sign as i passed by them…throughout this i wonder a lot what was going on … i started smoking marijauana more than usual… i would here people saying under breath that i pissed off a witch or that death follows me… i’ve noticed my mother now has a pentagram devil necklace…after i ask her why she has that she denies it and tells me it justs a necklace.
but i didn’t believe that so i started doing research about these magic stuff … came to find out some of my friends have been being mean i guess like for example one friend snuck brass knuckles in my book bag once … i didnt know why ? i asked him he had told me a dumb exuse like i didnt want my mom finding out…i came to find out objects like that bring danger to someone… and it brought back to when that guy(witch/phrophet) told me people were doing witchcraft on me… things were’n’t going good every job i had somehow my they would start losing business and i would get fired they told me something was up with me. cant help to notice the only people that new most about my job were my parents. something was up with my family … i had to find out … so i went out to see a phsycic . the physcic told me my grandma is with me but when i asked about the curse it was like she was being sarcastic … then moments later the vibed changed the phsycic looked scared … i left it all seemed in my head… i have been going t church almost every sunday following our fathers scriptures, i feel like god has even sent me messages that he is with me and that i need to be born again. ive been to confession face to face and he said i know what you want and a prayer is not going to help" i didnt know what he meant, i asked and he didnt answer me back he told me everything was in my head which me made me happy you know that it was just me … but then i went to mass next sunday and i said hit to him and i asked how he was doing … he gave me a odd look and didnt want to conversate with me … ive come to find out that there’s a chance i was adopted i look asian btw but i was raised by catholic parents… ive heard people under thier breathe say “thats not his religion” or “damn” or look at me and cross the street … i remember random kids usto approach me but now they just cry to their mothers. i even had people mock me in the streets " they put thier hands together life they praying and they look at me and shake their head. i have a 5 decade rosary around me … i don’t know whats wrong with me idk if its my face i mean one side of my face sorta drops (bell palsy) my mother had slapped me really hard when i was little and numb my face and i even try to hang my self once… i was sad my parents didnt pay attention to me on my accomplishments as a kid , my mother use to keep my presents up high where i can reach them and told me she would one day give them to me …and she did but i was already 7 years old and those toys were for 3-4 years by that time i had lost interest in toys cause i never could have them … i was raised with a older sister she didnt have a problem getting toys … my sister thinks i dont remember when she was angry out of spite she said " your not even my brother you was adopted" i’ve recently started catching on more " as kid i was living on that metaphor they say “ignorance is bliss” but when i got into my 20’s things when sideways… i can’t to notice a lot of people go to phrophet’s , i dont like the sound of that , but it seems like i am the only one who doesnt have one or should be going to one … i mean god hates all that magic stuff or i am i wrong ? And also the priest said i was no longer a mystery ? what is that soppose to mean why can people be clear and stop with these metaphors … can someone tell me what is going on ? should i be seeing a phrophet to guide me because it seems everyone seems to practice magic and can see my enerygy and read my posssible futures because i hear them say it under their breathe i have good hearing btw …ive noticed now my mother now is getting closer to god she is actually praying now and asking for a miracle for me … i dont know what miracle is she asking about she doesnt want to say… she seemed to stuff with her magic stuff she was like i have to change … can it be my own family wants me to fall apart ? my parents dont want to go to confession they seem scared… when i get i realize they have a knife in thier room … my intaution tells me that they know i have found out what they been doing and think i am going to kill them so they seem paranoid. please guys help
the past two years ive been dealing with some strange things in my life… it all started when my own family introduced me to a witch/phrophet he had told me it was white magic that it was a good kind… at that time i was depressed and all i wanted to be was happy, i didnt know what i was getting myself into… but something was off about what i was doing, at night time something always woke me up… so i told the guy i dont want to be involved with “elegua” anymore, but he insisted i don’t leave but i stopped anyway … something was off about it… i got closer to god and our lady of the cloud… from what my intuation told me at the time i had recieved a miracle… i would see the guy around and he was scared and put on his hoody while he passed by me… god was next to me is what i had in mind … then idk days passed and something was off i kept getting signs that i was cursed and my so called friend told me i was cursed too … i didn’t really believe it … but then i started noticing people in the streets giving me a bad look and even some people would make the cross sign as i passed by them…throughout this i wonder a lot what was going on … i started smoking marijauana more than usual… i would here people saying under breath that i pissed off a witch or that death follows me… i’ve noticed my mother now has a pentagram devil necklace…after i ask her why she has that she denies it and tells me it justs a necklace.
but i didn’t believe that so i started doing research about these magic stuff … came to find out some of my friends have been being mean i guess like for example one friend snuck brass knuckles in my book bag once … i didnt know why ? i asked him he had told me a dumb exuse like i didnt want my mom finding out…i came to find out objects like that bring danger to someone… and it brought back to when that guy(witch/phrophet) told me people were doing witchcraft on me… things were’n’t going good every job i had somehow my they would start losing business and i would get fired they told me something was up with me. cant help to notice the only people that new most about my job were my parents. something was up with my family … i had to find out … so i went out to see a phsycic . the physcic told me my grandma is with me but when i asked about the curse it was like she was being sarcastic … then moments later the vibed changed the phsycic looked scared … i left it all seemed in my head… i have been going t church almost every sunday following our fathers scriptures, i feel like god has even sent me messages that he is with me and that i need to be born again. ive been to confession face to face and he said i know what you want and a prayer is not going to help" i didnt know what he meant, i asked and he didnt answer me back he told me everything was in my head which me made me happy you know that it was just me … but then i went to mass next sunday and i said hit to him and i asked how he was doing … he gave me a odd look and didnt want to conversate with me … ive come to find out that there’s a chance i was adopted i look asian btw but i was raised by catholic parents… ive heard people under thier breathe say “thats not his religion” or “damn” or look at me and cross the street … i remember random kids usto approach me but now they just cry to their mothers. i even had people mock me in the streets " they put thier hands together life they praying and they look at me and shake their head. i have a 5 decade rosary around me … i don’t know whats wrong with me idk if its my face i mean one side of my face sorta drops (bell palsy) my mother had slapped me really hard when i was little and numb my face and i even try to hang my self once… i was sad my parents didnt pay attention to me on my accomplishments as a kid , my mother use to keep my presents up high where i can reach them and told me she would one day give them to me …and she did but i was already 7 years old and those toys were for 3-4 years by that time i had lost interest in toys cause i never could have them … i was raised with a older sister she didnt have a problem getting toys … my sister thinks i dont remember when she was angry out of spite she said " your not even my brother you was adopted" i’ve recently started catching on more " as kid i was living on that metaphor they say “ignorance is bliss” but when i got into my 20’s things when sideways… i can’t to notice a lot of people go to phrophet’s , i dont like the sound of that , but it seems like i am the only one who doesnt have one or should be going to one … i mean god hates all that magic stuff or i am i wrong ? And also the priest said i was no longer a mystery ? what is that soppose to mean why can people be clear and stop with these metaphors … can someone tell me what is going on ? should i be seeing a phrophet to guide me because it seems everyone seems to practice magic and can see my enerygy and read my posssible futures because i hear them say it under their breathe i have good hearing btw …ive noticed now my mother now is getting closer to god she is actually praying now and asking for a miracle for me … i dont know what miracle is she asking about she doesnt want to say… she seemed to stuff with her magic stuff she was like i have to change … can it be my own family wants me to fall apart ? my parents dont want to go to confession they seem scared… when i get i realize they have a knife in thier room … my intaution tells me that they know i have found out what they been doing and think i am going to kill them so they seem paranoid. please guys help
