Hello brother, I, too, am a recovering addict. I understand completely what you mean. It’s hard to keep the temptations at bay until you reach the point where you feel they take you over and you feel almost out of control, am I right? It’s painful; physically, spiritually, mentally, it’s all painful. But remember, the most commanded thing in the Bible is to “Fear Not”, the darkness may feel like it’s encroaching upon your breakthrough and Satan is baying like a hound at the door of your heart. I wish I could say that goes away but it doesn’t; the Adversary knows our weaknesses and responds in equal measure. So now for what I want to tell you, if you are feeling this so strongly now, after months, then you must know that you are on the verge of final freedom from this thing. You will tempted for sure, but the Lord provided for those who seek him. I had the words Fear Not tattooed on my knuckles so I would never forget what the Lord did for. I pray for you earnestly, my brother. I’m not sure how.messaging works on here but please, coming from someone who was in that place, who is still there sometimes, I am available for conversation, prayer, love, and friendship. God bless you in ways you couldn’t imagine. Love you, brother!