First, WOW! I can’t thank everyone enough for the positive support. I did not expect to get such a great response. Also, thanks to those who went out of there way to share their story as well.
I have been listening to the catholic answers podcast, which I have found extremely good. It was on there I heard of the “how to talk to atheists” series. I got it, and found Robert Spitzer’s talk extremely enlightening. I think that has pushed me more to the side of at least believing in God.
Regarding Jesus, at times i believe and have absolutely no doubts, then at other moments, i find myself questioning it. What do i question exactly? well, that all of the stories are true. I’ve read up on people like David Koresh, and for how crazy he was, he actually had followers. I’m not going to take it down that road b/c of how ridiculous of a comparison it is (it isn’t even a comparison and obviously don’t think of the two as the same at all, i’m just pointing to a situation in which someone had followers but was not who he said he was) but the point is simply to say, how do I not know that Jesus wasn’t just a really great guy who taught an amazing message of love? Maybe those that followed him exaggerrated on some of his claims? i don’t know.
Or what about all of the other civilizations who believed in gods or a god. We often think it’s crazy that at one point Greek people believed in Zeus and the rest of their gods, what if at some point in the future people look at us in this same manner?
Again, i don’t mean to say any of this in any kind of bad way, i truly want to believe. I did believe for a good portion of my life, and i find the moments when do believe, i find myself to feel more at peace (partially probably b/c i believe that there is something after this life and that it isn’t all just for nothing). I find myself thinking on this stuff ALL DAY, listening to the podcasts every day, reading these forums and anything i can get my hands on.
With that bit of information, does anyone have any other specific ideas of what books i should be reading next? There were a few mentioned, and I’ll definitely check those out.
Thank you to everyone again, I really do appreciate the support.