I guess I couldn’t really say without more info, but I found that when that happens I’m not probing deeper into the mysteries. Try and put yourself into the scenes of the mysteries…how would you have acted/reacted in those situations?
For instance from Friday…would you have fallen asleep with the disciples, oblivious to what was going on? What does that imply spiritually?
Would you have steadfastly followed Him out of the Garden, or run off as the rest did leaving Him to take care of Himself?
Would you have been shouting CRUCIFY HIM! or would you have denied Him as Peter did, or just not have been there?
Would you have made a mockery of Him as the soldiers did?
Would you have even cared enough to try and defend Him and save His life as Pilate did? In the end washing your hands of the whole affair? Do you do that today concerning others? Or Christ Himself?
Would you have been at the foot of the cross with Mary and John - or hiding worried about you?
How do these things apply to you today? Do you make a mockery of Him through your actions? Do you deny Him in your everyday life? Do you sleep and worry about yourself while He is in heaven looking after you pleading with you to see Him, Pray with Him, keep watch for/with Him? What does that say?
Are you carrying your cross, or helping others carry theirs? Are you looking at our torn and battered Jesus asking Him to take on more and more suffering on your behalf, while ignoring your part in what He has already suffered?
How many of those stripes on His back are yours? How much of His blood spilled belongs to you? Meditate on the words of Paul “By His Stripes - We Are Healed”
What about reversing all of that - would you be willing to go through that for someone you didn’t know? Look at how much Love and determination Jesus showed NOT to lose even a single soul…not even that of those who were kicking, beating, spitting, whipping, mocking, and crucifying Him.
Would you be willing to go through any of that for someone?
What can you learn from all of that? How can you apply those things to living better and more for Christ today? What virtues did Christ show…how is that an example for us? We don’t even begin to scratch the surface of what Jesus went through, yet we constantly fall even without any outside help.
We have an advocate who was tempted beyond what we can even begin to comprehend, and a Mother who was there for all of it, determined that it will not be for nothing that He did so - willing to help us even through the most minor of trials and loving us even when we do act like those who put Jesus through the Passion.
How can we emulate what Jesus did? How can we conform more and more to His way of
thinking? How can we begin to look at others through the eyes of Christ, with the mind of Christ, and see them all as people worthy of our suffering - and death even, in order to possibly save them from themselves?
What can I do, today, right now - to save ME from myself? What am I ignoring about ME? What does Jesus see in ME that He Loves me that much, and what does He see in ME that needs to go?
I try and probe the mysteries beyond just the surface, beyond just what they mean theologically or the Truth of it, to what it means personally. Past Present and Future.
Then too - look at it all through the eyes of Mary…what did she see? How did she feel? She is our advocate also, and She is a model for us as well - what can we learn from that?
Personally - I don’t think there is an end to what we can learn from the Mysteries.
Also - I don’t feel we have to always Pray the Rosary using the mysteries either. The Rosary is a tool, given to us by Our Blessed Virgin Mother - to help us to meditate on or about anything. Scripture, problems, Virtues, Gifts of the Spirit, Family, Love, Jesus, the Trinity, Prayers, Our Blessed Mother Herself. Virtually anything.
Hope this is of some help to you
Meditations may also provide some fresh perspective.
Peace and Blessings
John