I think it’s a fairly common experience for a lot of people, maybe to varying degrees, and if you look at the lives of some Saints, they also had similar feelings — but they pushed through, as we all should.
That’s the challenge for our faith in our current society, I think, especially in the US where the prevalent influence is Evangelical Protestantism - and therefore (at least in perception) largely based on the emotional “personal relationship with Jesus” thing. (And we do need that, but…)
In order to have a true faith that persists and yes, a relationship with Jesus, we treat it like any other relationship (another thing our society seems to misunderstand these days). It requires effort at times. It’s not always happy-making. We live in a culture of disposables, and I see it in how we treat others, too. Once the relationship gets the slightest bit unhappy or turbulent, it’s time to turn and leave. The relationships that work are those we put the effort into even when it’s not easy.
Sometimes it’s challenging or inconvenient to go to Mass or pray. Do it anyway. Yes, we can give ourselves short pauses in relationships sometimes (can’t talk now, skip a lunch with friends, etc.) but we don’t do those things consistently. The same with God. We don’t really take a break from him; we may change up our routine here and there, but the important thing is to keep the relationship going.
