First, if possible, I would try not to take your daughter’s rebellion personally. I know that is easy to say. Your daughter’s rebellion IS, even though you would not be able to tell it easily, her own search for God. Your daughter probably sees traditional morality as imperfect and hypocritical. And she is rebelling against this imperfection, believing that the opposite path must be the road to perfection. Of course, she will learn that perfection is in God’s nature, not in human nature.
Also understand that God still loves your daughter, even if your daughter does not love God. Your daughter’s hatred of God is a form of love, just the opposite form. She is feeling intensely for God, but hatred rather than love. Everything flows into its opposite.
When I was 20 years old I went through a potent anger at traditional Catholicism and at the hypocrisy I saw embodied in Western religion. But I did return to my roots eventually, and rediscovered Catholicism in its more pure beginnings, its roots.
Another thing that might help. A larger view. History moves in 36 year cycles. 18 years of unity and progress. This is the easy cycle in terms of spirituality. Everything goes forward with ease. Everything expands. If you have lived long enough, perhaps you can see this in your own life. I am also suffering. Why am I suffering? I am suffering because something in me is dying: a life I created, a life I built.
1983-2001. This was a period of creation. We all built our lives; and our progress was relatively easily. Everything expanded, as the universe itself expands duirng the creation process. The society is relatively unified. Everyone believes in the law of progress and order. Then, everything stopped, stopped expanding, and began to collapse in on itself. Of course, we see this in our economy – but our personal lives also began to collapse. The world we built from 1983-2001 began to disintegrate. This would be explained by your daughter’s rebellion. From 2001 to 2019 we are all living in a world that is no longer expanding; our hopes are no longer expanding; our plans are imploding. We have lost money, lost health, lost progresss in our dreams. This is a spiritual fact. These contractions and splintering will continue until 2019.
I went through my first spiritual death experience 1965-1983. It was devastating. We also saw America distintegrate, socially, racially, politically. I wrote a kind of book of revelations during that period, which documented a descent into the underworld, very much like Dante’s Divine Comedy. The book is u(name removed by moderator)ublished. In 1983, I went through an experience that was very much like the Book of Revelations, with Michael the Archangel playing a pivotal role, a pregnant woman from Israel playing the role of Mary and the Earth, and a Satanic angel attempting to harm both of us.
After this experience, the world began to expand, and life became easy, and we soared, as a culture, into the Promised Land. I thought it would never end. But then, in 2001, it ended. The expansion ended. We had a Tower of Babel experience with the Twin Towers (Yes, I am seeing this as a ‘hand of God’ exprience), with God punishing America for pride, hubris, greed, and for worshipping the wrong God, the God of Money.
There will be 18 years of sorrow, downsizing, getting small, with the goal of passing through the eye of the needle. This is, in one sense, punishment; but it is also how Nature (God is the mind of Nature) balances the world. Our culture is out of balance. We think we are like God. We are proud of our intellect, our military power. Wall Street even had workers wearing “Masters of the Universe” tshirts before the collapse of Wall Street in 2008. This is the pride that NEEDS TO BE PUNISHED now. Death comes into the world. From 1983-2001, the expansion felt that there was no Death, there was no shadow. From 2001-2019, the shadow, Death, is very strong. This is a testing of your spiritual strength. Your daughter’s rebellion is a test of your faith. Suffering tempers your soul. Why do we suffer?
The Creation, the Growth Period, 1983-2001, is the Age of the Father. Everything expands. The Destruction, the Decay Period, 2001-2019 (1965-1983) is the Age of the Son. During the Age of the Soul we all suffer the same fate as Jesus Christ, although onot necessarily on the physical plane. Our dreams die; our faith is challenged; we become hopeless. The world becomes darker and darker. Even doing little things becomes almost impossible.
But there is good news. In 2019, the Holy Trinity will manifest; and the opposition of Faher and Son (or of Father and Daughter in your case), will, through the Age of the Holy Spirit, transmute again, change direction, and the Son will be fused to the Father again in Divine Love, through Divine Fire, and through foregiveness. The Daughter will forgive the Father for his imperfection; and the Daughter will also forgive herself for her lack of perfection: these two branches of forgiveness are, in fact, the fame branch. The Holy Spirit’s Divine First fuses the division in the House back into a New Harmony, a New Unity, and expansion begins again, relieving us of our pain, our sense of contraction, hopelessness, sorrow. The darkness will begin to lift. It is a slow process, this lifing of darkness. The New Sun will be born in 2019, like a seed is born. For the next 9 years there will be a continued battle, which will be slowly won by the expanding light.
We are all suffering now. Do not think you are alone in this suffering. From 2001 through 2019, we are all reliving the sorrows of Jesus Christ, the Son of God.
Please know that I am praying for you and your wife!!!