I have prayed for you, my friend, and will continue to do so.
I’ve never done meth, but after my husband died (at the age of 49), I began to drink a LOT. It controlled me and my life. From the moment I woke up until I finally passed out, I drank straight Scotch. Every time I poured more into my glass, there went some of my pain. I drank until I was numb, and I didn’t care. It kept me from feeling anything. I didn’t want to feel anything, because if I did, I would be curled up in a ball crying.
I had no one to comfort me. I was alone and desperate. No one wanted to be around me, not because I was a mean or hateful drunk, it was just because I was drunk all of the time. I lost jobs because I was drunk at work. I lost friends because I wasn’t my old happy go lucky self. My family committed me because I tried to commit suicide…twice.
Before David died, I was so happy all of the time. I loved to make people laugh and I loved to laugh. I loved to cook, go dancing, go to the beach, go camping and hiking, and have family and friends over for a fun evening. After he died, I didn’t have any desire to do anything. All I wanted to do was sit and drink and be numb.
Then one day, out of the blue, I decided this is it: I’m not going to drink today. I prayed and prayed and prayed. I
made myself NOT go to the liquor store. I
made myself start cleaning up the house. I *made *myself take a long hot bath. I
made myself go put makeup on and go out to dinner–by myself. Later that night, I got the shakes really bad. I started throwing up (there went dinner). I was too sick to do anything. That lasted for about 3 days. Oh, I wanted so badly to go to the store for another drink so I wouldn’t have to go through the DTs. But I
made myself stop in my tracks. It wasn’t easy. It was hard!!!
The only thing I can tell you is that YOU are the only
person who can change things in your life. No one else is responsible for what you do. No one else is to blame for your actions.
However, God CAN change things if you will let Him. All you have to do is ask Him. He will forgive you for ALL of your sins. In an instant, your soul will be wiped clean as new. Nothing you have ever done will be held against you in His court of law. How gracious is that? No record! Wiped clean! You can begin again with your new self. And the best part is that you can and will be happy again. You can and will look in the mirror and say, “Hey, I know you and I kind of like you again!”
Are you ready for this new day? If yes, then go right now and throw out the meth, pour out the bottle. You can do it! I promise you it is worth every second of discomfort you may feel. It is sooo worth it for your loved ones and your friends who care so much for your wellbeing. If no, then you can email me any time. I will always be here for you. I will never judge you or condemn you. We will walk that path together.
I DO love and care about you. You are just as important to me as my own sons or any other member of my family. I am your sister in Christ, and you will be in my prayers.
Do not ever dispair or be discouraged, for God is with you. Look to your right, look to your left, and all around you. God is enveloping you in His comfort.
May you find peace, joy and love from all of those near and dear to you.
May God bless you and keep you in His comforting arms today and until eternity.
May your burdens be lifted from your shoulders and put into God’s hands.
May your prayers be answered swiftly and concretely.
No matter what happens in your life, dear friend, God will always protect you just as He does the smallest sparrow and the tiniest ant. You are His child. If He provides for the smallest sparrow, just think what He will do for you!
Our Father who art in Heaven
Hallowed be Thy name,
Thy Kingdom come,
Thy Will be done
On earth as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread,
And forgive us our trespasses
As we forgive those who trespass against us.
Lead us not into temptation,
But deliver us from evil,
For Thine is the Kingdom, the power, and the glory
Forever and ever…
AMEN
