@anhphan I always enjoy your unique outlook, anhphan. I’m glad that you keep returning to CAF.
You know, we’re almost all plagued by your question, at least at some point of our lives, if not over and over again. Many, many times it’s had me in a quandary.
Make a list of “pro” statements and “con” statements for the issue at hand. Which list is longer? Are there other issues. Make the lists for them, too.
Pray. Carry on an internal conversation with God as you do with your friends in reality. Let the love present in the chapel while you kneel or sit in the presence of the Blessed Sacrament at Adoration soak into your very being. TRUST in the Lord. Keep up with your normal responsiblilities and continue to pray and trust. Your answers will come to you.
Best wishes.