Let us start, with a general answer, and, although I ramble, I’ll see if I can become more and more specific as time goes on.
God is many things. In fact, he pretty much is everything. Well actually, he just IS.
This concept can be hard to understand, but one thing is that He is truth.
In our every day lives, we acknowledge and experience that which is true. For a scientist or mathematician, it is a solution to an equation or experiment. For theologians, it is the truth of logic and common sense. But whatever we do, truth is truth is truth, and truth is God. So wherever we find truth, we can also encounter truth because God is NOT true, He is truth itself.
God is love. This is from 1 John 4:16. In 1 Corinthians 13, we find a defintion of love. It is patient, kind, it is never jealous, is never boastful or conceited, it is never rude or selfish, it does not take offence, and is not resentful…snip… Love does not come to an end.
If I could move mountains, make prophecy, and change the world that would be great. But if I have not love, then it is all for nothing, if I do not have love, then I am nothing. Instead of a sweet choir of angels, all I am is a clashing gong, an unfinished cadence in the sweet tune of the world.
God is love, and so He is patient, kind, all those things. To experience love is to experience God. Find love, and you will find God. Find friendship, you will find God. Be in love, and you are in God.
Another thing that is present is that He is all that is good in the world. People often counter this with asking why is there evil in the world. I am compelled to say that God is not the only one at work here. They say the greatest trick the devil ever pulled was making people believe he doesn’t exist. How right they are, for they blame the evil of the world on Him not on Satan, who deceives us all into his momentary pleasures, his mortal eternity.
God is also a person, Jesus Christ. In this we find that Christ gave us one thing; God. He died for us, and suffered for us. As a result, wherever we see suffering, we see the trinity. For in the moment of the crucifixion the Godhead of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit were united in the accomplishment of Christ, the Son. The Father willed it, the Son did it, and the Spirit gave him the strength to do so. In the street where we walk and we see the homeless, when we hear on the news of a death, or come to know that people in our town are wife beaters and people are living their lives in fear, they are not alone, because Christ is with them.
There was a man, I forget the whole story, but basically he was standing at a gallows and he saw his friends being hung for religious persecution. A man came up to him and said.
‘So, where is your God now?’ To which the man replied.
‘He is there, being hanged with them’.
The whole point of our faith is that it is one that is universal, Catholic, and it means that while yes we have to change ourselves to Him, such as getting up on a Sunday morning, keeping the commandments, but we are able to experience and find God in our everyday lives. It isn’t in some far off place like Mecca or under a special condition that we experience Him. He is the living God, and that means He lives in the world today as much as He did at the time of Christ. He lives in us as much as we live in the world He created for us. Through that finding of truth, that finding of love, of striving against sin and trying to be good people we find our God. We find our friend, our love, our very breath.
It is hard to visualise and in some ways to accept this. At the end of the day, you can believe whatever you want to believe, but truth is still the truth.
If you want to find God, look in the mirror. Take a deep breath, clear your mind, and say two words:
Thank you
To see Him, we must see Christ. The Church has wonderful methods which are the ones described above, the Mass, Adoration, going out into the street, Scripture. But it is above all a personal thing. If you feel uncomfortable with prostrating yourself in front of the Blessed Sacrament, then try something else. I’m not saying avoid it but I think in time you’ll do it of your own accord. For now, I would say to do the things you know are right morally, and which also give you pleasure, such as reading a book, or solving that equation. You’ll get there. But the important thing is to keep going, and to keep yourself open to Him. He is not silent, only waiting for you, my brother.