CFaith is not a feeling and we cannot rely on our feelings to guide us through our spiritual journey. The lack of good feelings, aka. consolations, is not an indicator that you have not been given grace nor are bad feelings. Feelings come and go. The Catechism of the Catholic Church says it quite well:
2005 Since it belongs to the supernatural order, grace escapes our experience and cannot be known except by faith. We cannot therefore rely on our feelings or our works to conclude that we are justified and saved. However, according to the Lord’s words “Thus you will know them by their fruits” - reflection on God’s blessings in our life and in the lives of the saints offers us a guarantee that grace is at work in us and spurs us on to an ever greater faith and an attitude of trustful poverty.
A pleasing illustration of this attitude is found in the reply of St. Joan of Arc to a question posed as a trap by her ecclesiastical judges: “Asked if she knew that she was in God’s grace, she replied: ‘If I am not, may it please God to put me in it; if I am, may it please God to keep me there.’”
Sanctifying grace is given us through the sacrament of Baptism and is received ex opere operato (by the very fact of the action’s being performed) unless consciously rejected by the recipient. Sacramental graces are given us through the other sacraments, again ex opere operato, but can be blocked if the recipient is not in a state of grace.
There are special graces or charisms which God gives us for the good of the whole Church and graces of state which help us fulfill our duties or ministries within the Church and the world.
Receipt of God’s free gift of grace can be rejected or blocked by our conscious will or by our not being in a state of grace (state of mortal sin). Sure, demons can tempt us to block grace or commit sin but most often it is our conscious decisions that do this.