sorry but I just want to say that this is all like a weight soaking over me it seems that the more I do to love my work mate and the more I read the morning and night prayers the more deeper the sinfulness seems to show up in me or to pressure me.
Try not to let things worry you, Wayne. Trust in Jesus who is holding you close. We are all sinners and will remain so, although it can be the work of Grace to help us understand what sin is and this can press very heavily upon one. Trust Jesus nonetheless who knows all that is happening and has you in His care and in His Heart.
But my work mate is being set free, coming to a point of having to crack from the past, and also the situations at home are the same. But I feel so nothing although am not depressed rather elated that our Lord is allowing me to go through this for others.
The Lord will never try you more than you can endure, Grace is always on your side. All our sufferings whether very small or very great through our Baptism and our state of Grace are united to the Cross of Christ, but even more closely if we do consciously unite our sufferings, most small or most great, to those of Jesus. All our sufferings are redemptive.
I just don’t like satin ( if it is) seeing my weaknesses, using them although I know God wants to allow this to be for me to become free of it all. Each time I ask Jesus to help me I seem to fall and have to start again. I don’t want to follow others but it all seems the same as Therese talks about, in the little bird not being able to get up a stare without God’s help.
None of us can even breathe without God’s Help…so in all things in our lives we need God and His Help and it is always there, always present for us. Falling and starting again is very much, I think, the business of life and our journeys. Saints, it has been said, are sinners who don’t give up!
As the saints grew in holiness, they don’t talk about the Cross less, they talk about it more and that they carry the Cross in some form or other most all their lives…some have come to love and embrace the Cross with Joy.
One of the reasons, I think, in the “Hail Holy Queen” why we call our earthly life “a vale of tears” is because the Cross and sufferings is intrinsic to every journey. But in Heaven “every tear shall be wiped away”.
God will win, in the end.
I know.
Nothing is surer, Wayne…nothing is surer! Amen Alleluia Amen!
Blessings and my regards…Barb
