I was raised as a Jew but I’m an atheist. I’m not a Dawkins style atheist. I have no desire to convert the world to atheism.
But I do have a question for Catholics here.
HOW are you able to believe?
Even if I wanted to I could not believe in, say, virgin birth or a man rising from the dead. Nor could I believe in Noah’s Ark or the flood.
It’s a gift from God, to have faith revealed to you. I can tell you the shivers that run down my spine when I meditate on Psalms that say things like, “You have counted and named all the stars in the sky. You know every hair on my head.” and Jesus preaching, “Consider the ravens. They do not sow or reap, and yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable are you than birds! Do not worry…life is more than food and the body more than clothes. Which of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?” and Isiash prophesying, “I will never forget you. Your name is marked on the palms of my hands.” and Jesus, promising the thief who was crucified next to him who confessed his guilt and begged Jesus to remember him when he got to his kingdom, “Truly, you will be with me in Paradise.”
I can tell you about the first time I went to Adoration with a devout friend, when I felt the presence of Jesus and I prayed, “I missed you!” and then I saw a bright light and felt very hot, and I heard the words, “I missed you, too!” and I burst out crying. That was my real conversion experience that lead me to the Catholic church.
These are precious gifts that I pray every day and thank God for and I pray that my relationship with God can keep growing and I can keep feeling that connection with Him and find ways to show His love to the world, like Jesus did.
Many people are not given what I have been given and I pray for them. You have to be open to that love. That’s all I can tell you. I closed myself to it for many years, but it was always there. I pray that you will someday discover it if you decide to open yourself up to it.
God will never force Himself on anyone. But He misses you every moment, whether you are aware of it or not.