I know, Architect. I often feel that way. Having just been on a retreat, I can recommend that to people – spending time, all day for several days, with like-minded people. Many are like us, but some of them (you will recognize them) are truly spirit filled and a real inspiration. I think if you spend some time rubbing up against them (figuratively, that is), some of what they have will rub off on you. If nothing else, you can ask them for pointers in how they achieved that level of certainty.