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Anglewannabe
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I started to go to adoration about a year ago. Mainly I was unemployed and looking for positive inexpensive ways to spent all the time on my hands. I found the experience OK. I enjoyed the mid week opportunity to be in a church. Although a positive experience, I never had any strong emotions about it.
Well, I just finished my second week at a new job. It is stressful having not worked in so long, I am worried I will not perform up to scratch (but that is another post). Since adoration was in the middle of the day, I was disappointed that I would no longer be able to go because of work. To my joy, I found out about a church that has adoration on Sundays. I went today.
As I was driving there, I remembered an incident with my father that happened when I was in high school almost 30 years ago. Me and my dad did not get along back then and fought a lot. He died 2 years ago. When he died, I was able to see how good God was because a big chunk of the negative feelings and resentments I had towards my dad, were put to rest when he died. It is as if there is now a peaceful and joyful feeling knowing he was my dad I never had while he was alive. Also, I had no idea he was about to die. A couple of weeks before he died, I talked to him on the phone. And I was able to say a few things that I had wanted to say to him for a while but feared it would turn into a fight. Of course after I said them, we argued. But now, I am grateful I said them. So often when someone looses a loved one, they wish they could have one last chance to tell them something. I never had that feeling because in God’s perfect plan, I did have that chance and I was able to say it all.
So, today in adoration, I wrote in my diary about the event that happened in High School and cried and cried. Then I sat for a bit longer and practically fell asleep in the church. I came home exhausted.
I am just wondering, do others ever feel extremely tired after heavy intense prayer in adoration? Or am I just exhausted from starting a new job?
Angie
Well, I just finished my second week at a new job. It is stressful having not worked in so long, I am worried I will not perform up to scratch (but that is another post). Since adoration was in the middle of the day, I was disappointed that I would no longer be able to go because of work. To my joy, I found out about a church that has adoration on Sundays. I went today.
As I was driving there, I remembered an incident with my father that happened when I was in high school almost 30 years ago. Me and my dad did not get along back then and fought a lot. He died 2 years ago. When he died, I was able to see how good God was because a big chunk of the negative feelings and resentments I had towards my dad, were put to rest when he died. It is as if there is now a peaceful and joyful feeling knowing he was my dad I never had while he was alive. Also, I had no idea he was about to die. A couple of weeks before he died, I talked to him on the phone. And I was able to say a few things that I had wanted to say to him for a while but feared it would turn into a fight. Of course after I said them, we argued. But now, I am grateful I said them. So often when someone looses a loved one, they wish they could have one last chance to tell them something. I never had that feeling because in God’s perfect plan, I did have that chance and I was able to say it all.
So, today in adoration, I wrote in my diary about the event that happened in High School and cried and cried. Then I sat for a bit longer and practically fell asleep in the church. I came home exhausted.
I am just wondering, do others ever feel extremely tired after heavy intense prayer in adoration? Or am I just exhausted from starting a new job?
Angie