I do have some of those desires you mentioned.
I am more attracted to a life in the world rather than a monastery. The diocesan priesthood I like.
It would be an enormous honor and priveldge to offer the Holy sacrifice and administer the sacraments.
I want all the world to know of God and to glorify all the time. And I want so much for all to bask in the love of God in heaven.
Your right when you say to pray, pray, pray. That is my advice to everyone, maybe I should listen to myself more.

Anyway thank you strugglingalong.