Believe me - I’m trying. The priest of my Melkite parish is being unhelpful (I can’t say I’m very helpful either because it’s not on the bus line and I have no transportation, so I can rarely appear in person: I can afford a trip about once a month or a little less in a cab, $70 round trip) but I won’t go around or above him unless all other options have been exhausted and it is imperative. To do so seems by its nature “Protestant”.
I got the same thing when I wanted to convert to Catholicism: “Are you sure? You sure you don’t want to remain an Orthodox? It’s not good ecumenism to convert. Don’t you want to help heal the rift? What about your Eastern roots?” from priests on both sides.
It’s been and is like walking a tightrope through a maze to get from where I was (Coptic Orthodox apostatized to Islam) to where I know I should be after I realized my error (or, if it’s poorly phrased, where I want to be), Roman (Latin rite, Thomist/Scholastic heritage) Catholicism - Coptic Orthodox, Islam, Eastern Orthodox, Melkite Catholic… the last step remains. And what idiot said the first step was always the hardest?
As I said in another thread, I got the Triads of Palamas and the Philokalia (foundational documents of the Eastern form of spirituality), along with the Canon Law of (now, thanks to this thread) both jurisdictions, and am currently studying them to see if I can convince myself far enough to be able to remain Eastern in clear conscience. That’s probably not too healthy of an attitude to keep, but there seems to be a great amount of institutionalized centrifugal force to keep Orthodox Orthodox and Byzantine Byzantine. I doubt it will, but I attempt to keep an open mind (I’ve never read Palamas himself, just other people with an axe to grind one way or the other digesting him), but I think it would bother me if I didn’t at least try.
I’m figuring it’s the same issue here (along with a generally disorganized parish, which complicates matters), and as soon as I manage to get the transfer to become canonically Latin (or even to get the ball rolling, as the priest has stopped returning my messages now), it should all be “smooth sailing”, so to speak. (Except for discernment, sin, prayer, charity, fortitude - you know, all the small stuff.)
I just noticed - between Constantine and I, we’re essentially swapping places.