Hi,
With a priest like that, who needs enemies! The pregnancy is a blessing for the baby—but certainly not for you! Fortunately, there is a place to turn for help. I suggest that you turn to the crucifix and the Lord’s passion. Our crucified Savior is the solution to every problem. He knows what it is like to be betrayed and has given you an opportunity to share in His passion in this way. Not only did Judas betray Him, Peter denied Him three times and the rest of the Apostles abandoned Him, leaving Him quite alone before those who apprehended Him.
Have no doubt, He is very aware of your plight and loves you enough to share this part of His life with you. To have difficulty trusting a husband that betrayed you is not wallowing in self-pity. I only hope that priest never suffers a betrayal because I doubt that he will be able to help himself any more than he helped you!
While the inanimate sign of the crucifix can help to direct your attention to the Savior’s unlimited love for us, the Eucharist is the LIVING sign of it. The sight of His blood separated from His body on the altar is enough to break one’s heart if one lets the reality sink in. Such will be your consolation. There simply is none greater!
I encourage you to spend time each day going over His entire passion in your mind and thanking Him for each suffering. This will focus you and give you perspective. You will know His peace and the ability to forgive. I will remember you during my daily hour at 2 a.m. before the Blessed Sacrament as I go over the passion and give thanks.
Fr. Vincent Serpa, O.P.
