How is this God's will for me?

[Limes28]

I’m sorry if this post is in the wrong place, I’m new here and not sure where it would fit.

Six years ago I was badly heartbroken, which left me more weary of trusting potential partners.
In February I started dating someone. I prayed and asked for God’s help and guidance to see if he was the one for me. I believed God was showing me that he was. I could see myself marrying him. I fell in love. Then the man started drifting away from me (he has family issues) but still I prayed and believed that one day we would end up together. Even though it was hard I didn’t let it upset me too much as I put my faith in God.

Two weeks ago I was raped by someone else. I’ve obviously been to the police etc but I feel like I’m in a black hole. I go from feeling nothing to feeling really anxious.

At the start of the week the man told me he’s seeing someone at the moment. Now I really feel like I can’t cope.
Having to deal with the rape would be hard enough. Having to deal with a broken heart would be hard enough. I don’t know how I can get through both together.
Its starting to make me question God. I don’t want to do that but I can’t help it. I feel so angry and alone and broken. I feel like I have no control over my life and don’t know what to do.

I don’t even know why I’m posting this to be honest because I don’t know what I want from you.

 

[Jelrak_TB]

I’m sorry if this post is in the wrong place, I’m new here and not sure where it would fit.

Six years ago I was badly heartbroken, which left me more weary of trusting potential partners.
In February I started dating someone. I prayed and asked for God’s help and guidance to see if he was the one for me. I believed God was showing me that he was. I could see myself marrying him. I fell in love. Then the man started drifting away from me (he has family issues) but still I prayed and believed that one day we would end up together. Even though it was hard I didn’t let it upset me too much as I put my faith in God.

Two weeks ago I was raped by someone else. I’ve obviously been to the police etc but I feel like I’m in a black hole. I go from feeling nothing to feeling really anxious.

At the start of the week the man told me he’s seeing someone at the moment. Now I really feel like I can’t cope.
Having to deal with the rape would be hard enough. Having to deal with a broken heart would be hard enough. I don’t know how I can get through both together.
Its starting to make me question God. I don’t want to do that but I can’t help it. I feel so angry and alone and broken. I feel like I have no control over my life and don’t know what to do.

I don’t even know why I’m posting this to be honest because I don’t know what I want from you.

I am so honestly sorry to hear this. My wife (my fiance at the time) was also raped–by an inmate on day parole. She ended up getting Hepatitis C as a result and so had to change her entire lifestyle to fight this disease.

All I can really offer you is her example. She did not lose faith, but used God to rescue her from the vileness of this world. Even though I am agnostic I value this resilience in her as I see the strength that it has lent her.

I wish I could give you the type of assurances you need to stay strong during this time of distress and heartache. I wish I could give you a real sense of hope. All I can really share is my solidarity and understanding for your pain. I really hope you can use these negatives as a positive later.

This experience right now must feel like the worst time of your life, but it might actually give you the strength or depth of character you need in order to confront something else or comfort someone else later. I wish there were more words of consolation I could give, and I hope your family is close to you at this time.

Please, no matter how hard things seem to be now, just remember that you are now a member of a community of those who have endured similar hardships. Please endure. Please be brave and strong right now. The future might give you better insight into how this works itself into the greater pattern that is your life. And know that you are loved…you will not be abandoned here.

Sincerely,

Jelrak TB

 

[Allegra]

I don’t really know what to say other than I’m praying for you and I hope you find some support so you don’t feel so isolated. I know there are resources to help women who have suffered from sexual assault. If you have family and friends, let them circle around you as well!

 

[Regina7]

I’m so sorry.

I was raped in college. At the time, I thought it would crush me. It didn’t. Much of my strength came from that experience. It made me a better person.

You will get through this. Take it one day at a time and don’t forget that God is with you.

Perhaps you can read some saint stories, like Maria Goretti. I found it comforting to see how other women dealt with similar issues without losing their faith.

God bless.

 

[Mummsie]

I’m very sorry to hear of your assault. My daughter was raped and beaten up. I know she felt very scared and moved home for a while. She turned down counseling. Instead she volunteered for a Rape Hot Line. Somehow listening and sharing with others helped her get through it.

As for your lost love, I agree the timing is terrible. All I can suggest is to Pray. Pray for your ex, Pray for Strength, Pray for help to forgive. God is with you and you’re not alone.

Praying for you. God Bless you.

 

[katpants]

That just sucks, I’m sorry about it all. I’ll be praying for you!

 

[Rand431]

Do you pray the Rosary? If you don’t I strongly recommend a 54 Day Novena asking for peace. Remember that the devil will try to stop you from seeking God he really does not like it when people pray the Rosary so it can be challenging at times. There are youtube tutorials and CDs and stuff if you find it challenging it only takes 20 minutes and brings so much peace. I’ll keep you in my prayers. I hope you recover from all this. And remember God will never give you a cross you cannot carry.