I don’t understand that question, FM927. I’m not going to tell you to just can it and accept everything, but it is confusing me because it separates loving and following the Lord from loving and following the Church, and what I have come to believe in my ~3 years as a Catholic is that the two are inseperable. When you become part of the Church, it is after coming to the understanding that it is CHRIST’S CHURCH, so what it teaches is not in contradiction ever with what He has taught. So how can you disagree with any of its teachings and still love God with all your soul? I don’t understand this.
As to the OPs question: We all have our faults. Of course it takes some time (sometimes a long time) before you come to understand the teachings that, at first glance, seem “wrong” or “strange” to you. I have been Catholic for almost three years now and there is still much I am learning. The key, I think, is to be open to the truth that is embodied in the Church. In a way, you have to be willing to give up your own desire to control things. This was and still is a HUGE issue for me in relation to the Church. For me, it wasn’t/isn’t that there is any one specific dogma that I disagree with, but the idea that I completely give up everything that I had grown up with (as a Presbyterian) and conform myself to a lot of new rules that I had never heard before and in most cases didn’t understand. But once I relinquished that “self-control” (in quotes because now I realize I never really had any to begin with), I became more able to look at the doctrines of the Church with an open mind. I was there to begin with because I had the feeling that this was
probably right; through RCIA and a looooot of studying (still ongoing), I am every day shown that it is IN FACT right. The truth is there…I had to grow up a bit to see it.
There is still a lot I get a twinge of unfamiliarity about, just because there is no parallel to much of this in the form of Christianity I was brought up in. Veneration of the Saints is one such thing…I know (and agree with!) the reasons for doing it, but when it comes to doing it myself by kneeling at a statue…I don’t know. I don’t know why, but it still seems like one of those things that only cradle Catholics intuitively understand. I don’t think it’s idol worship or anything like that, but I am a lot more comfortable with the Orthodox way (the Saints are still venerated, but with two-dimensional pictures, never three-dimensional statues). This was also the case when I learned to cross myself and was reprimanded by doing it “the Orthodox way” (right to left, though I still did it with my left hand…com’on, that’s really close! Don’t Eastern Catholics do it this way? Maybe I’m just in the “wrong” rite?). Oops!
So I wouldn’t feel bad if I were you…go to RCIA, and pray incessantly that you be open to the truth. It is there, you just need to show up ready to learn!