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TK421
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I started teaching at a Catholic school this past Fall and live on the campus of the school & sanctuary. I’m in a situation on Wednesdays and Fridays where I participate in the daily Mass and since there’s no commute between me and the sanctuary, I need to be mindful of the 1 hour fast before communion, which has proven difficult on several occasions. I wake up, busily going about my routine, sipping my coffee or my juice, and then remember halfway through the Mass that I haven’t fasted for an hour. I understand from history that the fast before receiving Christ used to be longer, which almost seems enviable to me because the fast is so short that the act of remembering it, in an odd way, makes it seem harder than if it were allegedly more strict, or at least that’s the demonstrable verdict from me for the past 9 months. I could easily remember a 3 hour fast.
I don’t intentionally break the fast, but it has happened on several occasions where I remembered this and so I didn’t go up, and I have little reason to believe it won’t happen again. I’m the sacristan / multi-purpose right hand guy for the priest, and I altar serve on Fridays. Last Friday I spontaneously remembered in the middle of the daily Mass that I was drinking apple juice just before walking over to get everything prepped, so I didn’t receive, which caused a bit of awkwardness for the priest (the students aren’t present on Fridays though). The priest afterwards explained that absent-mindedly breaking the fast was a venial sin, and that I should receive, especially if I am altar serving. I can understand absent-mindedly breaking the fast and then receiving, but the big dilemma for my conscious was that I consciously remembered about 10 minutes beforehand. Add that to the fact that there is no obligation to receive Eucharist at Mass, it just felt like the practical, failsafe option to abstain. I’m going to have thousands of opportunities to receive over my lifetime, barring any mountain lions or tractor trailers attacking me.
The other thing is, I’ve discovered over the past 12+ months that nothing ever really changes about a person unless you doggedly force the matter. Good intentions by themselves are powerless. People waste decades with a good concept floating around in their mind and nothing ever happens. If I’m going to just wobble up and receive even if I forgot to observe the fast, then how am I ever going to remember? If I imitate a donkey and place a red line over the issue (or any issue), I just might be able to gain the discipline to remember, even though the 1-hour rule raises the difficulty bar.
How should I go about this in the future?
I don’t intentionally break the fast, but it has happened on several occasions where I remembered this and so I didn’t go up, and I have little reason to believe it won’t happen again. I’m the sacristan / multi-purpose right hand guy for the priest, and I altar serve on Fridays. Last Friday I spontaneously remembered in the middle of the daily Mass that I was drinking apple juice just before walking over to get everything prepped, so I didn’t receive, which caused a bit of awkwardness for the priest (the students aren’t present on Fridays though). The priest afterwards explained that absent-mindedly breaking the fast was a venial sin, and that I should receive, especially if I am altar serving. I can understand absent-mindedly breaking the fast and then receiving, but the big dilemma for my conscious was that I consciously remembered about 10 minutes beforehand. Add that to the fact that there is no obligation to receive Eucharist at Mass, it just felt like the practical, failsafe option to abstain. I’m going to have thousands of opportunities to receive over my lifetime, barring any mountain lions or tractor trailers attacking me.
The other thing is, I’ve discovered over the past 12+ months that nothing ever really changes about a person unless you doggedly force the matter. Good intentions by themselves are powerless. People waste decades with a good concept floating around in their mind and nothing ever happens. If I’m going to just wobble up and receive even if I forgot to observe the fast, then how am I ever going to remember? If I imitate a donkey and place a red line over the issue (or any issue), I just might be able to gain the discipline to remember, even though the 1-hour rule raises the difficulty bar.
How should I go about this in the future?