The background is long and I didn’t want to give it right away. I don’t want him to see a counselor and be tested for schizophrenia. I’m afraid he would be misdiagnosed with it when it is likely a spiritual thing.
My son is almost 17. I have another son who is 10. Then it’s my husband and myself. More than a year ago I had a major conversion experience and my husband and I went to daily Mass every day, frequent confession, and spent an hour or more in adoration everyday. We were students at the time and neither of us worked. We’d say a daily rosary with the other daily Mass attenders and sometimes a 2nd one with the family. I also did the the Divine Mercy 2-3 times daily and spent a lot of time listening to my mp3 player with Catholic hymns and meditating. We were (and mostly still) living totally and completely for God giving Him all of our trust. We gave up everything offensive to Him such as, birth control, anything past a pg rating, secular music, etc. I gave up TV and internet almost completely. I became a much better person. I was more patient, more kind, more loving, a better housekeeper, a better wife, a better mom, etc.
Soon things start to happen to me. First, major sorrow over my sins and of Jesus’ Passion. I cried hard and long several times. Then for a week I experience this unbelievable physical feeling that lasted a week. It felt like my blood had menthol in it. I had this huge urge to go to an Adoration chapel, but I was stuck at a hotel 3 hours from home for the weekend for a marriage retreat. Throughout the weekend, this physical feeling gets stronger and stronger only to be revealed at the end of the weekend that the Blessed Sacrament was exposed all weekend long in a nearby room with our names on a board for the hourly adorers could pray for us and our marriage. I had no idea. This same physical feeling now comes and goes on occasions either at Mass during Consecration/Communion or confession.
During all this, my 10 yr old was more on board with all the in home changes and the extra religious activities than the 16 yr old. The 16 yr old was somewhat on board and offered many sacrifices and wrote prayer requests for various deceased people whenever he saw a book at one the parishes we went to for such purpose. But he wouldn’t give up offensive things such as what he watched on TV mostly. He didn’t go to daily Mass with us and he didn’t say many prayers with us.
My husband, myself, and my 10 yr old believe we heard God.
I heard God with my ears once, once when I was about to doze off during meditating, and occasionally He spoke through me 1-2 words. When He did that, the word would come out of my mouth, but no control or thought on my part. Several times it was a word I never even heard before, but a real word that I could look up online. It was always an answer to a question I was thinking about.
My husband and my 10 yr old son both heard Him in the Adoration chapel (not the same day). My husband gets several sentences told to him about His expectations and about how He needed to help me with my faith and trust. This was said because soon after, my 19 yr daughter left the state and moved 8 hours away and within 3 weeks after, our one and only car was stolen. But it most probably has to do with the current situation with my baby since my faith and trust has been a major roller-coaster ride.
A few weeks later, I was in the Adoration chapel with the whole family. We’re by ourselves and I’m upset crying about our situation at the time. My 10 yr old speaks up and says, “mom, I think Jesus told me to tell you to have faith and trust and everything will be all right in about 2 months” I calculated that to be Sept 30th. He was right, mostly. The bigger main problem was resolved Sept 30th. The other problem, wanting my older daughter to move back, well that’s free will and He won’t mess with that.
Since my car got stolen in July, we started to become more “normal”. We had no way of getting to Mass or chapel for 2.5 months and we soon mostly stop formal prayers. In Oct we moved and we get on the city bus line and my husband works a 12 hour evening shift. I begin to get back to the way I was above and 4 months later, my baby is taken and I’ve been on a major roller coaster. What remains the same during this situation is daily Mass, regular confession, and avoiding offensive music, TV etc, but I don’t do the prayers or meditating as much any more and I’ve had a lot of whining and complaining over my situation and not a lot of trust, as well as a lot of questioning God. I’ve threaten to leave God numerous times and to stop going to Mass. I just can’t. I’m so tired, I’m so tired, I’m so tired! For the most part, I feel like God left me and is offering no guidance.
And now this thing with my 16 yr old son. Who mostly doesn’t like going to Mass, saying prayers, thinks saying OG and GD are not using His name is vain, and mostly is uninterested in going to confession and mostly does not receive the Eucharist and doesn’t seem to care; has been hearing a voice in his “heart”, “sees” demons, purgatory souls, as well as Saints (who apparently paid us a visit while we were singing the Divine Mercy Chaplet at home) and he “sees” these beings when his soul “leaves” his body. He believes that one time his soul left his body and went to another part of his school to visit his girlfriend in her class and while he was there, he saw her surrounded by demons.
I don’t know what to do. I spoke to a few priests, but they recommend psych therapy. One of the priests I spoke to didn’t believe these experiences were really happening to us.
