I can fully understand what you mean Winston. I was raised JW and became Catholic. I was exactly were you are now and know how hard it is to leave. Things won’t always be this way.
Once you leave you’ve done the hard bit. It gets easier after that. Disfellowshipping will come to mean nothing to you. You may also find the people who no longer speak to you never really spoke to you anyway - other than to say ‘hello’ at the Kingdom Hall, and were never true friends. If you have to act for someone, they can never be a true friend. You can leave the JW’s. It’s only when you leave you realize you can, that they have no control over you at all. Right now they still have you mentally, as they did me. There will come a time when they will not and you will realize they only had you mentally. But all this takes time and it was easier for me in that my parents were dead when I left. I don’t envy you in terms of how things will be between you and your parents.
I have no animosity to the JW’s now, other than the one’s I don’t like simply because of the kind of people they are, not because they are JW’s. I would like to be stay on good terms with some of them, but you know how it is. If they want to live by those rules that is up to them, but I don’t have to. They are simply their rules and nothing more. I have never been disfellowshipped and so some JW’s still say ‘hello.’ If they ask you to one of their judicial committees, believe it or not you can just say no. You are perfectly justified in saying no. You don’t have to comply with their rules. What are they going to do? They can’t force you.
I don’t know if the JW’s ever found out I became Catholic. The priest who catechized me told me it was none of their business. That does not mean hide it, it means they have no right to know unless you want to tell them. I went to Mass worrying about whether they would see me; looking over my shoulder. They may know now, but now I honestly couldn’t care less whether they know or not. You don’t have to tell them anything. You don’t have to ask their permission to leave. They have no authority over you and the only power they have over you is the power you let them have. That is not a criticism. I thought they had authority and power over me. I now know they don’t. The relief you will feel will be immense.
Good Luck. :shamrock2: