I am afraid of my mother

  • Thread starter Thread starter chuckbobb
  • Start date Start date
Status
Not open for further replies.
C

chuckbobb

Guest
I’m worried.

I had a dream where my Mom killed two people (I don’t remember who they were). Now, I

know she wouldn’t normally do this

but it scares me…

I think we were on a train.

She came into my room and I instantly knew she was going to kill me next.

I said “you are going to kill me aren’t you?”

She replied, while looking sad “yes”

“But why?”

She looked up-I’d describe her face like she was depressed and she didn’t want to kill

anyone but she was driven to it- “you know why” was her reply

And I knew the reason why… I thought of all the times I had hurt her in that way… I knew- but it brought me no peace-

We moved over to a shelf in the room

She pulled out a knife

I unzipperd a pocket on a backpack that I knew held a pocket knife. (I have no clue why it was there)

We said some things after that,

I don’t remember them

Then she moved towards me while talking

I grabbed her left hand which the knife was in.

We struggled for a bit- no words were said- then I got the pocket knife out of the pocket

and the knife opened.

My mother was surprised.

I lightly cut her hand.-I can remember the cut it left

She let go of the knife

I remember someone else there, off to the side. They had just come in

I think I thought (in the dream) that she was going to try and kill that other person (and

because it was a dream I’m guessing she had another knife)

I moved toward her.

She moved away from the person and fell.

I killed her.

It wasn’t on purpose.

I think… well I don’t remember-

but I killed her.

I’m not exactly sure how that happened but I remember her looking at me and she

said “you killed me” I remember her face as she fell - It will haunt me.

Now I am afraid of my mother!!! Every time I do the “reason” -every time I

mess up in that particular way and make her sad- I remember that dream.

I become more afraid of her.

I no longer want to be around my mother.

I am not going to say what the reason that she killed was.
I am not going to say that I’m not scared of her-I am- I do know I could overpower her if it came to that.
I know this is irrational- but that means nothing.
but I know this isn’t likely to go away.
I need prayer at the very least.

so please pray for me, leave HELPFUL comments, I have posted and gotten vary negative comments-so please restore my faith in online users and leave nothing unhelpful.
 
I think you should discuss your concerns and the thing you do that hurts your mother with a priest and make a confession. It might be that the dream was a manifestation of guilt that you feel over the thing you are doing. If so, absolution would certainly help. You can also pray to Our Lady. If you rationally know that your mother wouldn’t hurt you, then maybe you are more afraid of hurting her? 🤷
 
Allegra said:
I think you should discuss your concerns and the thing you do that hurts your mother with a priest and make a confession. It might be that the dream was a manifestation of guilt that you feel over the thing you are doing. If so, absolution would certainly help. You can also pray to Our Lady. If you rationally know that your mother wouldn’t hurt you, then maybe you are more afraid of hurting her? 🤷
Click to expand...
Well said!

And it’s always good to remember that dreams are often not a manifestation of real (or soon to be real) life situations, they are just dreams. Unconscious, random, unwilled thinking that occurs when you reach a deep stage of sleep.

In addition to Marian prayers I reccomend the St Michael prayer and the Guardian Angel prayer every night before bed. 👍
 
Dreams are not normally premonitions, but rather, the editing floor of our heads.

That said, content like this if in your head, suggests some negative juju between the two of you.

I’d say there is nothing to be lost and a great deal to gain by taking your concerns to a confessor.

God Bless and ICXC NIKA
 
Praying for you and your mother, that you will be able to work this out and come to a resolution where you won’t be afraid of her any longer.
 
chuckbobb said:
I’m worried.

I had a dream where my Mom killed two people (I don’t remember who they were). Now, I

know she wouldn’t normally do this

but it scares me…

I think we were on a train.

She came into my room and I instantly knew she was going to kill me next.

I said “you are going to kill me aren’t you?”

She replied, while looking sad “yes”

“But why?”

She looked up-I’d describe her face like she was depressed and she didn’t want to kill

anyone but she was driven to it- “you know why” was her reply

And I knew the reason why… I thought of all the times I had hurt her in that way… I knew- but it brought me no peace-

We moved over to a shelf in the room

She pulled out a knife

I unzipperd a pocket on a backpack that I knew held a pocket knife. (I have no clue why it was there)

We said some things after that,

I don’t remember them

Then she moved towards me while talking

I grabbed her left hand which the knife was in.

We struggled for a bit- no words were said- then I got the pocket knife out of the pocket

and the knife opened.

My mother was surprised.

I lightly cut her hand.-I can remember the cut it left

She let go of the knife

I remember someone else there, off to the side. They had just come in

I think I thought (in the dream) that she was going to try and kill that other person (and

because it was a dream I’m guessing she had another knife)

I moved toward her.

She moved away from the person and fell.

I killed her.

It wasn’t on purpose.

I think… well I don’t remember-

but I killed her.

I’m not exactly sure how that happened but I remember her looking at me and she

said “you killed me” I remember her face as she fell - It will haunt me.

Now I am afraid of my mother!!! Every time I do the “reason” -every time I

mess up in that particular way and make her sad- I remember that dream.

I become more afraid of her.

I no longer want to be around my mother.

I am not going to say what the reason that she killed was.
I am not going to say that I’m not scared of her-I am- I do know I could overpower her if it came to that.
I know this is irrational- but that means nothing.
but I know this isn’t likely to go away.
I need prayer at the very least.

so please pray for me, leave HELPFUL comments, I have posted and gotten vary negative comments-so please restore my faith in online users and leave nothing unhelpful.
Click to expand...
  1. It was just a dream
  2. Mothers ( like Mary). Love and don’t kill thier children.
  3. If it is s maifestation of guilt, confess and then stop doing the sin!
  4. Limit your consumption of violent media which probably is playing a large role here.
 
As people said I doubt your mother is going to kill you but it sounds like there are a lot of complicated emotions going on. I think when we try to put difficult emotions to one side and get on with life they can emerge in our dreams sometimes in a scary or intense way but it’s not supernatural it’s just your brain trying to process things.
 
Dreams can feel very real, but they’re not. I’m not underplaying the way you feel, because even at my age I’ve had very unsettling dreams which have stayed with me and affected my mood during waking hours.

Go and give your mum a big hug and tell her you love her. 🙂
 
I find that dreams that come after I have woken then gone back to sleep are very disturbing and real. One night I dreamt so vividly that my cat leaped from a top window and landed atop a ginger cat… saw her fly through the air…

Scared me so much I woke up… to find cat asleep on my bed and window tight closed…but it rattled me at the time,
 
When I was in graduate school and taking a long time about it, I had a recurring dream in which I was holding a very dangerous-looking snake. I had it right below the head in one hand, so even though it was always trying, it couldn’t bite me. With the other hand I had it somewhere lower on its body–the snake was under control, but I couldn’t do anything because my hands were full. It was this situation where I was entirely safe unless I let go of the stupid thing, but for some reason just holding on to it didn’t take a lot of effort. I would walk through social events, talk to people and so on, and no one ever commented on the snake or seemed to notice it. No one else had one of these snakes. It was a really bizarre dream.

When I finally wrote up my dissertation and graduated, I quit having that dream. The prospect of writing up my dissertation was probably this big thing hanging over my head, and so as someone noted above, the jumble of thoughts and feelings I had about finishing my degree probably were expressing themselves in this dream. Once the worries stopped, the dream stopped.

It is extremely unlikely that your mother actually wants to kill anyone. You may have this emotional sense that she unknowingly has a stifling effect on people though, or some force in your life that your mother represents in your dream may have that effect. For instance, your job may supply you with your means of making a living, your social life, your professional identity, and a bundle of good feelings. Something that big in your life might bring up some feelings in you a little like your mom does. If your workplace is “unintentionally” killing people off–firing them, wrecking their careers, having a bad effect on their personal lives–and you are beginning to fear that you are next, though, this dream would represent your inner determination that you’re not going to allow that to happen to you, no matter how much you love your job and feel grateful for it. Your job could show up in a dream as the person of one of your parents. The Church could show up in a dream as your mom or your dad, or vice versa.

Our dreams show that our minds are pretty good at cooking up some very moving allegorical fiction, if we let them. Our brains know their audience, after all, right? 😉 😃

The chances are that you won’t have this dream again. I and most of the people I know have really weird and unsettling dreams from time to time, but when they don’t repeat you eventually forget about them. You fear a repeat less and less, as time goes by. If you do have a repeat, though, or if this experience continues to have an unsettling effect on you, then it might be time to figure out what the dream means and what is having this ongoing unsettling effect on you. If you can’t figure it out and the memory of this dream keeps bothering you so much, by all means find a counselor. A really weird or scary dream here and there is par for the course, but one that recurs and upsets your daily peace of mind may be telling you to face a problem you haven’t admitted is as big a problem as it is. Face the problem, and the chances are that the dream will go away.

If the dream doesn’t recur and if your level of anxiety about it ebbs, though, I wouldn’t worry about it. We could go nuts trying to figure out all our vivid and unsettling dreams. Most just aren’t that important.
 
Your dream’s about you, not your mother,
and to your feeling of inability to help your mother recover from her sadness about what you may have done.

It’s about how you feel about whatever it is that you feel you’ve done wrong, hinted at by you.
You need to deal with your guilt and feelings, as it is affecting your life and relationship.

You need to get help if you can’t deal with your guilt and sorrow on your own.

God bless you and your mother.

And, be kind to your mother and be kind to yourself, you both need that. :flowers:
 
Status
Not open for further replies.
Back
Top