I Am Deeply Humbled By A Dream

[MariaG]

First off, the forums are slow. It is hard to even just read or respond to threads. I know I personally have only been going to a couple since it takes so long to read them.

But I am so thankful I decided to look at a new one. Yours.

What an awesome testimony! You need to print it out and place it in a journal. That way whenever you get doubts creeping in you can look at your own words and remind you of the wonderful answer to prayer you had.

I do understand what you are talking about with your son. One of my sons also went through the same thing. I too wondered if he may not be possessed. It is hard to describe and understand if you haven’t seen it. My oldest had night terrors. The second it was beyond night terrors. I finally realized that he has a gift and sensitivity to evil and good. There is an unseen world. Some are more sensitive that others. He is now 12 and recites the Prayer to St. Micheal along with his other prayers every night.

As for the Holy Water, I hope you have gone out and got some! In our house, we have several. If my children wake or can’t go to sleep because of the “heebie jeebies” we bless the entire room as well as the children, asking God to drive out all evil and place His angels around like the drops of water. I literally fling the water against the windows, floor and doorways.

A great story we like to relate is once, the now 12, then 7 year old had fallen out of his bunkbed two nights in a row. He was already asleep but his older brother was really worried he would fall out again and asked me to pray for his younger brother. I pulled out the Holy Water and sprinkled it along the side of the bed asking God to place His angels here and keep him from falling out of bed.

About an hour later, I heard yelling in their bedroom. There was the bed faller, not really awake, screaming at “no one” at the side of his bed saying “MOVE!!! Let me down!!!” My oldest was sitting straight up in bed with this look on his face saying “oh my gosh, the angels are stopping him from getting out of bed.”

I will try to get back to read any updates, but I am having computer problems as well as forum problems. So if I don’t post, I am probably reading.

God Bless,
Maria

 

[BobCatholic]

I’m so glad God talked to you!

God so much rocks! No need for mirror smashing here, God did it much better than I could ever do!

 

[Shinobu]

I don’t know, there are some things about this story that bother me. The first would have to be that you repeatedly say you are “humbled” however your actions of telling your Husband, calling the Priest and posting it here for everyone seems to be the exact opposite of humility.

Another thing that disturbs me:

My irreligious husband (agnostic at best, but a good man) woke up from sleep and patted me on the back (I was silently praying) and said, “that’s a good story hon”. I said, “what story?”. He said, “about the people who were buried underneath St. Peters”. I said, “I didn’t tell you the story. I only told you that I had a dream.”.

However, you clearly told him about, “people buried under St Peter’s”

I told him that the trial was played out in my dream and the evidence we have to give credence to the writings of the Apostles are the remains of the people who were martyred, whose remains are buried beneath St. Peter’s Basillica.

Also you claimed that your Husband said he specifically heard your voice tell him this story. However, this explains differently:

He said"You sure did. I heard your voice. You said about the dream you had…about the Bible being real…b/c of the people’s graves beneath St. Peters and then I saw a cloth,

If he saw a cloth didn’t he realize he was dreaming? How could you show him a cloth if he thought you were telling him about your dream?

You constantly state that your Husband is “irreligious”. I don’t know, the whole thing just strikes me in a bad way.

shrugs well at least it made you happy, I guess. Sometimes people want so badly to be a Saint or one of Gods special chosen that the sometimes fabricate things in their head. I’m not saying anyone has done this, just stating my stupid opinion.

 

[Eden]

Wow! This is a wonderfully dramatic turnaround. When I read your post previously against Mary and apparitions it made me think of Fatima. At Fatima, Mary told Lucia that the devil was in a struggle with her. We as Catholics are not required to believe in apparitions but it is interesting. Notice that the other churches have removed Mary from their faith. You prayed the rosary, which Mary said we must do and grace was bestowed upon you. Remember that God chose to bring His Son into the world through Mary. He made her a very special part of His plan. When Jesus was on the cross He said, “Woman, behold your Son.” And to the apostle John he said, “Behold your mother.” Jesus has offered us His mother as our “spiritual mother”. I think it’s wonderful that you prayed the rosary. The Holy Spirit gave us His Son through Mary so it is only natural to desire to go through Mary to speak to Her Son. The rosary is cleansing and powerful.

 

[SusanL]

Shinobu:

I don’t know, there are some things about this story that bother me. The first would have to be that you repeatedly say you are “humbled” however your actions of telling your Husband, calling the Priest and posting it here for everyone seems to be the exact opposite of humility.

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How is this the exact opposite of humility? Sounds much more like genuine excitedness and wanting to tell everyone about her experience. That shows sincerity.

 

[SusanL]

This meant something to me. I can’t explain it and I’ll have to reread and study it more later but it hit me in the center. Thank you for taking the time to write all those posts.

 

[Jade]

Donna,

Thank you for sharing your beautiful expirence! I rejoice with you!! (hugs!)

May God bless you and your family!!!

Jade

 

[OnTheFence]

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I was so nervous and embarrassed after I posted that. I wasn’t sure how you all would take it. I’m glad God has enlightened most of you with my witness.

You need to print it out and place it in a journal. That way whenever you get doubts creeping in you can look at your own words and remind you of the wonderful answer to prayer you had.

Yup! I copied everything to the 'puter. i just have to print it out so it won’t get lost when the piece of junk dies . Yes, I had a busy day with my family today and came down from my clowd for a while, but a few times I remembered this morning and I was so…I don’t know what to call it…in awe I guess. And I am the type of person who tries to rationalize everything, so, I was already trying to see a practical explanation for it all, but as I recalled the whole thing little at a time, I knew again how significant it was to me. Maybe not everyone, but it definately means something to me.

I do understand what you are talking about with your son. One of my sons also went through the same thing. I too wondered if he may not be possessed. It is hard to describe and understand if you haven’t seen it. My oldest had night terrors. The second it was beyond night terrors. I finally realized that he has a gift and sensitivity to evil and good.

I’ve always felt that way about my daughter. She was singing the Chaplet of Divine Mercy before she was even 2 and, I remember a faith crisis I had back then that she seemed to react to also. I never would have thought about the thing with my son except that I know God did not suggest all those lies, so…and this thought led to my remembering my son b/c that was my first thought during his terror. I wondered if it was a result of my “new theory”. Thank God I had the thought to say the Hail Mary and St. Michael prayer. I did bless him with holy water today (i remembered I had some Lourdes water) and there was no screaming or gnashing of teeth . I was worried at first, but I remembered that I have entrusted all my children to the motherly care of Mary, and just prior to my trial, I had recommended myself to several saints and Mary. I trust they were very instrumental here. Besides, God allowed this to happen, and it was for good reason. He is so wonderful!And thank you for the story about the bunk bed - that is so awesome!

BobCatholic: I’m so glad God talked to you!

God so much rocks! No need for mirror smashing here, God did it much better than I could ever do!

I was wondering when you were going to mention mirror-bashing. As soon as I saw your name in your first reply to me I actually accused myself of mirror worship - lol. I thank God for you!

The first would have to be that you repeatedly say you are “humbled” however your actions of telling your Husband, calling the Priest and posting it here for everyone seems to be the exact opposite of humility.

I accused myself of pride too when I first started posting it, but I swallowed my pride and did it anyway b/c I felt I had a duty to all of you about the dream. I originally thought that it confirmed my slander b/c it proved the credibility of the Bible. After my husband confirmed my suspicion that it was the relic of the Holy Innocent I have, I was baffled. I tried to remember what other denominations believe in the communion of saints. Then I thought, “well, it was through a relic that is screwed into the crucifix of the rosary (like a box) so…maybe I should take a leap of faith and pray it.” I asked God to help me understand where I should go. It was while I was praying it that I envisioned, with every bead I prayed (I never prayed a rosary so slowly in my life!-lol), the defense of the church to my slanderous accusations. I suddenly knew, in a fashion like the “trial of the Bible” story I had in the dream, how the church can also w/stand trial by starting with the evidence of the saints …

 

[thearrowkeys]

Praise God for these will strengthen many! But wherever there is faith, their is doubt and wherever there is good things there are devils trying to mess us up…

Sometimes I am blinded by my own theories:
Doubt is simply a blindfold that Satan puts on. We tend to forget its on and see into it.

 

[OnTheFence]

. “You may know a tree by it’s fruit” this passage often came to my mind while I was in error, and I soon understood, through the rosary, that the saints are the fruit of the church. they attest to the credibility of the church. and from there, i knew the truth to all the errors i had believed. i cant wait to reflect on them again and write it all out. i want to correct the damage i may have done here. i’ll post it when i’m done. Anyway, about pride…I am quite scrupulous about pride. Humility is one of those things you can never know you have, b/c if you did, you might b/come proud . it’s a vicious cyle. but what i have learned is, when i have a really strong urge regardless of my accusing myself of it (which I think everyone should do, to discern hidden motives b/hind actions) I should to do it regardless of the possibility of pride, b/c experience has taught that the times I had resisted and not acted, I should have, and the times I had accused myself but did it anyway (b/c the urge was so strong - I know the suffocating feeling of it) the results of my actions really proved God had used me in someone’s live. I had to recant everything. After praying the rosary and understanding, I knew I had to recant it all and explain to you why at the risk of pride. Making sure I didn’t cause anyone to fall with me was more important than the POSSIBILITY that pride was present. As I posted earlier (after my mini-revelation account), I realized that this may not mean something to everyone.

. My husband still doesn’t see any significance in it. And maybe you don’t either, but that is okay with me, b/c I know that it was significant to me, it changed my stance, and i corrected myself so that anyone I may have convinced with my lies may see that I fully recanted. I went to confession tonight too. I feel like I’ve done what God wanted me to do. I haven’t told anyone else about it, b/c you were the first ones I knew needed to know. I will have to tell a close friend of mine too b/c I told her my list of errors too and I don’t want to allow her to continue in belief of anything I had said. I don’t know if she’ll believe it, but I can only hope she will so that she will not fall into error.

Another thing that disturbs me:

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My irreligious husband (agnostic at best, but a good man) woke up from sleep and patted me on the back (I was silently praying) and said, “that’s a good story hon”. I said, “what story?”. He said, “about the people who were buried underneath St. Peters”. I said, “I didn’t tell you the story. I only told you that I had a dream.”. However, you clearly told him about, “people buried under St Peter’s”
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I told him that the trial was played out in my dream and the evidence we have to give credence to the writings of the Apostles are the remains of the people who were martyred, whose remains are buried beneath St. Peter’s Basillica.
I know. I didn’t explain that well. I woke him up to tell him b/c i was so excited about my dream, believing that it confirmed my false “theory” about the incredibility of the church. I also hoped that when he read the dream (all of it) he would understand and believe in the Bible too. I SOOOO Want my husband to believe in God! Anyway, when he woke me up and said that I had told him the story (my dream), I first thought that he had had a dream (it was an hour later)that revealed everything in my dream (which would have reaffirmed me, and may have convinced him that God had given him a prophetic dream too). So I aked him “what story” to test this. I was so hopeful when I started telling me, but as he simply repeated word for word the little I had already told him, my heart fell…until, he hesitatingly tried to make sense of something he had seen. Then I got excited and kept pressing him, “yeah? what is it? yeah?” and he kept stumbling trying to explain it. he even thought it was funny, b/c he didn’t understand it. he just giggled out “i don’t get it. it’s a square of cloth being cut out of the rear of someone’s pants”. I knew immediately that it was confirmation of my suspicion about my relic. I had wondered if it was through the intercession of the Holy Innocent whose relic I have. And last year, after my last trial (which was 5 months long of questioning and finally disbelieving in God altogether) I had prayed to that Holy Innocent to rid me of my doubt about the church. I was praying silently when my husband woke me. I was praying that God would give me a sign to confirm my suspicion about the relic. As soon as he mentioned cloth being cut from the trousers, I knew w/out a doubt. JOY JOY JOY!

 

[OnTheFence]

Also you claimed that your Husband said he specifically heard your voice tell him this story. However, this explains differently:

Well, he didn’t say I showed him a cloth or told him about a cloth. He first repeated everything I had told him, and then he tried to articulate what he had seen in a dream (the cloth). I tried to show him how it was from God b/c he woke me up an hour after I had told him. he had been sleeping all that time. he is confused now b/c he said it was as if it all happened while he was dreaming. He heard my voice tell him that little bit about my dream, and then, in his dream, he saw the cloth.
He doesn’t see the significance either b/c he doesn’t understand second-class relics. I tried to explain it, and he doesn’t get it. Also, my relic doesn’t really look like a square piece of cloth, but then again, how old is it? Very. It’s probably so deteriorated that it doesn’t look like cloth anymore. Oh well. It spoke to me. Maybe it wasn’t meant for him. Maybe God will change his heart, and maybe he will do it some other way. I’ll leave it in His hands!

You constantly state that your Husband is “irreligious”. I don’t know, the whole thing just strikes me in a bad way.

I’m sorry it does. I did realize that it wouldn’t mean something to everyone. In fact, i was embarrassed after and wondered if everyone would think it was nuts anyway . But i know how it affected me, and i knew i had to tell it to you in order to take back all my slander. I am more concerned with that than whether or not everyone believes .

This meant something to me. I can’t explain it and I’ll have to reread and study it more later but it hit me in the center. Thank you for taking the time to write all those posts.

I am so happy to hear that. Would you mind sharing when you can better articulate it? You can PM me if you want to. I knew after all of this that others would reaffirm it also. I thought maybe my priest. I don’t know who or how, but I do believe God has more to say to me about this experience.

Wow, words cannot express how incredibly AWESOME is our GOD!!! MAY HE BE GLORIFIED IN ALL THINGS!!!

~donna

 

[BobCatholic]

OnTheFence:

I was wondering when you were going to mention mirror-bashing. As soon as I saw your name in your first reply to me I actually accused myself of mirror worship - lol. I thank God for you!

humble bow

I am glad to help. I am the Lord’s Servant (as are you), I only did what was expected.

 

[Mad_Amos]

Donna,

Our Lord has allowed your descent into hell, but He has called you forth in a most glorious resurrection.

You were my Rosary intention last night. Tonight I will pray for you again, but this time in a spirit of humble thanksgiving.

“Everyone who belongs to the Truth hears My Voice” says Our Lord. How joyous it is that you have answered His Call.

CHRISTUS VINCIT, CHRISTUS REGNAT, CHRISTUS IMPERAT!

 

[hlgomez]

I also want to thank you all very much for your prayers. Pio, you really did touch me, and I believe that Padre Pio was speakiing to me through you. I had asked him to be my spiritual father. Also, RyanL, I thank you for entrusting me to the Blessed Virgin Mother and the Eucharistic Lord.

First, I would like to say that I’m humbled, knowing that I carry with me the name of Padre Pio, also my spiritual father. I took his name as my confirmation name. And I know he always look after his spiritual children.

I also want to share that today, Saturday, was the first communion of my step-son. Wha a joyous and lovely day to look at little children receiving for the first time the sacred Body of our Lord. I was moved and became emotional. But I have to control myself becoming more ecstatic.

I thank the Lord for waking you up thru a dream. I truly believe you were having an experience of the darknight of the soul. God wants something from you and He is purifying your soul. Cling to the Lord Jesus. We have a lot of saints beside us and our most Blessed Mother, who continually pray and intercede for us. May the Lord give you His peace.

Pio

 

[OnTheFence]

Thank you for continued prayers. My pastor was right in telling me to wait a day of two until the emotionalism is tamed so that I can be more reflective about the experience. I see that I misunderstood some of it. I have a tendency to misunderstand things and jump to grand conclusions. As to the origins of the “evil” theory I had: some of it was true, but I jumped to conclusions. We DO need to “do as He tells you”, and maybe a lot of the rest of His Word is “not-essential” to know in our walk with Christ, but does that invalidate the divine origins of the church? no! in no way at all! I had stopped “do(ing) as He tells (me)” (conforming my life to His) and was just “going through the motions” so to speak. I was devout in religious practice, but not in the rest of the most basic areas of my life. I knew this, and it concerned me greatly. I used to love to do things for the Lord, and I still wanted to, but I seemed to forget. I hadn’t been reading much anymore. Maybe life got to busy for me, or I spent too much time talking about devotion (like on message boards ) but not DOING. So, perhaps everything that I felt was being revealed to me was not so bad after all. Satan may have had his ugly hand in some of my interpretation - he SOOO wants me to leave the Church! I know that. And God let me wander so far away in my interp. b/c He knew that if I could be so convinced of all the reasons why the church may not be divine, I would be much more firm in my understanding of why it IS divine once I saw the TRUTH about those same things. See? God is so incredible! He uses our trials and shortcomings and even Satan to bring us closer to Him! So, now I KNOW what makes the foundation of the church! I start by acknowleging the fruit of the church (her saints, the teachings about morality, the revelations about Mary, miracles and I’m sure there is more). There was a time when I was typing out my “theory” that something seemed to hit me. Mary. RyanL said something about Mary, and that was a big doubt planted in my heart. I had entrusted my 2nd unborn child to her b/c the doctors weren’t sure about his health. He was born with the cord wrapped around his neck and it had a TRUE know in it (something very rare. it was actually passed around for all to see b/c of its rarity) and he did not have the brain abnormality they thought he had. he was completely healthy… I’m sure you know what I’m getting at here. Who is it that esteems her rightly? The Church! I will never forget that.

I need to go now. I’m on my way to mass .

Have a blessed day and a happy Mother’s Day everyo’ne. Let’s all praise Jesus by doing something special for Our Lady, mother of all of us; little children.
~donna