I am wrong

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I am VERY frustrated in job searching Moreover, sometimes opportunities just fly by me and I can’t catch them. Today, I am yelled by my father and I start blaming myself. I think I am the most stupid person in the world. I destroy my whole career path by myself.

I keep praying to God for forgiveness because I keep disappointing him. Sometimes I feel God must be angry at me because I keep going to a wrong direction (this is what I think, I don’t know what God is thinking). I can’t see God’s help and I keep disappointing everyone around me.

What’s the point of living if my existence ashames my family? What’s the point of living if I keep disobeying God’s path (to be honest, I can’t really hear God’s voice during my jobsearch)? I love God, but I am unable to serve Him because I am useless. My friends are afraid of me. People that see me in the street run away. Again, it’s me who put myself into this situation. I make myself a prison which I don’t even know how to break it out.

See, how useless I am. The only thing I can do right now is to complain myself. I have tried everything I can think of, but nothing works. God, please forgive me for my uselessness. I believe in your love that never fail. Amen.
 
I wouldn’t say you are “wrong”. Perhaps you are weak, frustrated, confused, and in your case harshly judging yourself. You are not happy with this career endeavor, and then on top of it your family may not like your choices, so you take on more shame that you are a failure personally, but even more, to them and others you meet.

NOW, that is how you are thinking but it’s not accurate, it is not fair to yourself. You can be too critical of yourself, think and analyze too much about why your life goes a certain way. Sometimes it is merely chance the job did not work out. You cannot control everything.

I want you to be less hard on yourself. “No,” you say, “I am not hard enough on myself, I need to push and force myself to be better.” Well, maybe in the future, but right now you are suffering due to too much internal pressure.

Thank God that you say you believe in his infinite love. You have faith; this is a great gift God has given you. Even though, as you point out, it’s hard to imagine what God has in mind or wants.

Would you please take this wonderful belief you have in knowing that God loves you, JUST AS YOU ARE, and imagine it? Imagine however you like, God’s love flowing around you. The criticism of your Father is a tiny speck floating away under the rushing waters of God’s love for you.

You are trying, it is very clear, you have some things you want to change about your life and yourself, and that can only happen gradually. Start by reminding yourself God is with you in this, see him taking your hand and bit by bit learning to cope more calmly and easily with the hard problems of a job or family. God bless you; you are good.
 
I can only backup the message that the poster above me mentioned.

God loves you…please know that.

Fill your day with gratitude and service. Ask yourself in prayer and meditation…how is this struggle an opportunity for me to grow, evolve and have a bigger life experience in His Grace?

How can I help others? Please guide me to your path…

…and be relentless in your seeking “Thy Will be Done”

I have this belief that God doesn’t give us what we think we need, He helps us deal with what we’ve been given. And that life is about learning and about service…and today…for me, I am grateful for that.

I also share some work struggles right now that I will not burden you with. And trust me, it’s caused me a few hours of stress and pain to put it mildly…yet I am grateful for my family, and for the opportunities that exist that I just haven’t found yet.

I recognize this is temporary and only a test. I try to smile as much as possible and just move forward in His service.

Peace brother
 
Thy will be done…

That’s true. Without this suffering, I won’t be able to learn about
God’s love…
 
May our Lord fill you with his love and grant you strength and peace to help you carry your cross courageously, patiently and lovingly. May you draw great strength from the sacraments and meet regularly with a holy priest for spiritual direction. May you pray a whole lot and know that God has a plan for you in your life. May you never despair but keep trusting in the Lord’s goodness and providence. May your family be easier on you and understand that you are trying hard to find a job. May you give your feelings of "uselessness"over to the Lord and tell him you don’t want to claim them back. May you always remember that you are a precious child of God with a great dignity who is deeply loved by him. May God lead you to the job he wants for you,and may you persevere in your faith and in a state of grace. Amen.
 
Have faith, God loves all of us, each and everyone. I will be praying for you…
 
Jesus please reassure Joseph of Your love and of his own value as loved son of God.
Please help him to develop confidence and a balance self-worth so that he recognizes and uses his natural abilities well, and he learns to make the best of his unique personality.
Smile upon him Jesus, and help him to smile.
 
Praying hard for you to find happiness and peace of mind.
 
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