I come from a city with a strong Catholic heritage. (If you ask me, St. Louis’s cathedral is the most beautiful in the world, but I understand some people can’t deal with that and will deny it.
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) Catholics always seemed to have, I don’t know, a happier religion than the strict Lutheranism I was brought up with. You think Catholig school is tough? Try Lutheran school! Everything was fundamentalist and exclusive, and as a child I felt I must be a very bad person because my faith wasn’t always 100% perfect and my teachers were constantly punishing me for having learning disorders. Also I felt kind of jealous of Catholics because at least women had
some role in the church. At the churches I grew up in, girls weren’t even allowed to carry the cross in processions. Mary was just another woman. Women couldn’t be specifically called saints. We had no female writers who did anything besides exhort other believing women into being wives and mothers and submissive and obedient. I never wanted to marry or have children but I thought I had to because I didn’t have a choice.
Not that I feel that Catholicism is much different on women anymore, but at least a woman can be taken seriously. I remember reading a statement of Martin Luther who said that it was good for a woman to die in childbirth, since she was fufilling the only purpose she was made for.
Also there wasn’t much room for devotion. I admired how Catholics could enter a church at any time to engage in meditation, prayer and adoration. In my Lutheran church you went to services on Sunday; if you needed God outside of that time you were on your own. There were no special prayers or devotions since they smacked of Catholicism, no rosaries, no confession or side chapels you could quietly pray in. If you were feeling really spiritually uneasy and called your pastor, he’d gruffly tell you to pray with barely-concealed irritation for bothering him.
So there are a variety of reasons, also including that the more I learned of Luther the less I liked him, but mainly I always felt a pull towards the church. I don’t know why. That’s not to say I’ve always admired everything about it, but one thing I’ve learned is that many reformers stayed within the church, rather than starting new ones.