I need some advice… it has been 10 weeks now since I last went to Mass and even longer since I last went to confession due to various reasons. My soul is dying of longing for God but it is so steeped in mortal sin that I feel exiled from God. I try to pray but without the Eucharist and confession I have no strength. Satan tempts me in a thousand ways. He tempts me to be anorexic again, to wear clothes with bad intentions, and most of all, to stop believing in the faith. On top of all this, I have no idea what my vocation is anymore. I’m really lost and in need of guidance! What can I do to keep the fire from burning out?
When someone can not get to confession, then an act of perfect sorrow for sin will do until that person can get to confession. So I would recommend that first. Just look at the crucifix and at Jesus’ suffering being offered for your sins and and an act of perfect sorrow should be easy to make.
Then tell Jesus in your own words just what you’ve told us here, that you want to go but have no way to get there to receive his sacrament of Mercy.
Since you are dependent on others to get you to church and the situation is out of your control, then do the next best thing to receive the graces which Jesus wants you to have. And that is thru daily prayer, and being always faithful to them no matter what happens or how busy your schedual is, or anything else that may come up. This is very important that you be iron minded when it comes to your daily prayers.
Give up anything else but not them. Graces do not come without prayers, “ask and you shall receive.”
And the reverse of this is also true, “do not ask and you shouldn’t expect to receive” Grace makes it possible for us to be true to our faith in times of trial, it is the strength that comes from God supporting us, and without that we cannot and will not succeed. This is very important and one of the foundations of all the saints. Give me any excuse you want not to pray and I will not accept it. It is just that important. There is just no way to bypass prayer. And just as an example, how many times in your brief life have you succeeded without God backing you up with his light or power, and just using your own desire? You have to have that, and prayer brings this about. There is nothing in your life that is more important than prayers.
It is rare that a person would fall away when they have a strong prayer life. It is unusual for a person to fall into a serious bad habitual sin when they have a stong prayer life. It is uncommon for a person to ignore the light of Christ in their mind when they have a srong prayer life. And even an atheist, if he were to take on a strong prayer life, would overcome atheism.
I would also recommend that you keep a religious scapular or medal on you at all times.
Here is some important info about the Miraculous Medal, one of Mother Teresa’s
favorites.
“Have a medal struck… All who wear it will receive GREAT graces; they should wear it
around the neck. GRACES will ABOUND for persons who wear it with CONFIDENCE.”
From the mother of Jesus spoken to sister Catherine Laboure 1830.
Later Mary said, “… it must be given to the whole world and to every person.”
“Great graces are often attached to what seems trifling.” St. Margaret Mary Alacoque
“The devotions we practice in honor of the glorious Virgin Mary, however trifling they be,
are very pleasing to her divine Son, …” St. Teresa of Jesus
During this apparition, Mary’s hands had 3 rings on each finger. Each ring gave off
rays of colored light. A few rings did not. Mary said that the lights radiating from
the rings are graces that people ASK for. The rings that didn’t radiate she said
were graces not given because they were NOT asked for.
Have it blessed. The devil hates blessed objects. Keep it on all all times.
Wear her medal in her honor because the devil can’t stand her either.
Then say, “Mary I am asking now for great graces which
you promised to those who ask and believe in what you said.”
Trust her, it works. She is the mother of God. Would she lie?
Your mother wants to help you. It is her wish for you. She promised and she will diliver.
“Great graces are often attached to what seems trifling.” St. Margaret Mary Alacoque
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[legionofmary.org/MiracMedal.html](http://www.legionofmary.org/MiracMedal.html)
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“Yes, blessed is she who BELIEVED that the PROMISE made her by the Lord would be FULFILLED.”
(Lk. 1;45) St. Elizabeth extolling Mary for her complete trust in God’s promise.
