I did some reading, and searching. I don’t know your faith well enough to give any tips to you on how to cope with this.
Are you able to contact someone in your local catholic charities diocese, for emergency help?
Google catholic charities with your archdiociese name, and click on the links to find help.
you may have done this and are getting even more frustrated reading my suggestion, for that, I ask you have mercy on me for suggesting it. It just seems queer to me that you have been reaching out for help for so long, in this catholic setting, and still are not getting help.
Can’t the catholic church do something to help?
I live in a big city, and can go to many different churches if I wished to. Can you find another christian that can help you now? I am not suggesting leaving your church, or your faith, but just saying if they really are sisters and brothers, is it wrong to seek them out now in this time?
I don’t know if that is even a violation of your CCC.
But I do know Jesus said,
If 2 or more are gathered in my name, I am there.