I feel lonely and misunderstood

[moonlight87]

First of all, thank you very much for reading my story.
It all happened two months ago. I wasn’t able to find a job in my own country and then I was recuited for a position abroad, as a multilangual customer support agent.
The day after I arrived there was a relocation class for me and my current colleagues.
I did not feel home, I felt that my colleagues were immature.
People around me were not like me, religious and open to other people.
There was another guy. He was special as he was not able to show any affection, any emotion or just a feeling that he is interested in me as a person. I felt not understood by him. I felt I was sort of stuck with him as I sat next to him. I felt he did not appreciate me, even though I tried to do my best to get along with him even though I did not like him.
I feel stupid that I did my best to get along with him.
I offered him to help however not any sign of affection. I feel lonely and I wish people saw me the way I really feel inside.
I miss my catholic friends. I forgot who I really am.
I feel a whole different person in a negative way and other people seem to see me this way as well. I do not understand why other people can make me feel bad about myself and why I get so obsessed about it.
When I started working, I made a lot of mistakes as I am a woman and I have a technical job.
The mentality in the company is tough. It is all about targets, performing.

I started to suffer from a lot of stress, as I there is a lot of pressure to perform and targets.
Also I started to bear a grudge against the guy next to me and I feel like I want to tell him the truth about himself.
Last night I went to bed and the idea to wake up and go to my work the next morning made me so sick that I could not fall asleep. I feel lonely, confused and not understood.
I do not understand why I have to go through this.
This morning I called my work, to say that I can’t work because of stress.
I feel guilty, as if I reject wearing my cross and like to give up easily.
On the other hand, I can’t do this anymore and I feel it is not good for me to go back there again.

 

[Ophelia23]

Sweet friend, please know that I am praying for you!! I have never had to move to a different country, but I did move far away from my family, friends, career, everything, all because I felt like God was telling me to. I listened, and I did what was asked. But it took me to a place where I knew nobody. I had no friends. I had no family. I had no support, no guidance, nobody to keep me company or cry with me. I started to get resentful to God, even though I had willingly said yes to him. I handled it all wrong at first. It got to a point where thinking about my sadness was simply too overwhelming for me. I was so isolated. I did all of the wrong things to try and feel better.

Put your heart and your faith in God. Let Him work with you. The more I fought against it, the deeper I got into this hole. I am so thankful to be out of that dark and scary place. And looking back, I see how great the purpose was for everything I went through.

I only tell my story to let you know that I understand what you are feeling. How lost you are feeling. How deeply lonely and sad you are feeling. And I was able to get through the darkness to find real light on the other side.

I am praying for you!

And it calls to mind a passage from Dr. Seuss. I normally avoid putting in long quotes, but I really, really think it fits and might bring a smile to your face…

*All alone.
Whether you like it or not,
Alone is something you’ll be quite a lot.

And when you’re alone, there’s a very good chance
you’ll meet things that scare you right out of your pants!
There are some down the road between hither and yon
that will scare you so much, you won’t want to go on.

But on you will go
Though the weather be foul;
On you will go
though your enemies prowl;
On you will go
though the Hakken-Kraks howl.
Onward up many a frightening creek,
Though your arms may get sore
and your sneakers may leak.

On and on you will hike,
And I know you’ll hike far
and face up to your problems whatever they are.

You’ll get mixed up, of course, as you already know.
You’ll get mixed up with many strange birds as you go.
So be sure when you step.
Step with care and great tact
And remember that Life’s a Great Balancing Act
Just never forget to be dexterous and deft,
And never mix up your right foot with your left.

And will you succeed?
Yes! You will, indeed!
(98 and 3/4 percent guaranteed.)
Kid, you’ll move MOUNTAINS!

So…
be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray,
Or Mordecai Ali Van Allen O’Shea,
You’re off to great places!
Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting.
So… get on your way!*

 

[randirhoades]

I am so sorry you are going through this. I will pray for you dear one. You don’t need to be anywhere you are stressed. I know loneliness. For I have it here too. Plus, it’s not good if you express your negative feelings on another. Let God take care of this. You can also pray for a true friend or ask for God’s guidance. If you can, find a Priest if there any that you can talk to or a Counselor. Do nothing that you will regret later. Love, Sheila :hug1::console::hug1:

Our Father, Who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name; Thy kingdom come; Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread; and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us; and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil, Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace. The Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death, Amen.

Holy God,
Holy Mighty One,
Holy Immortal One,
have mercy on us
and on the whole world. Amen

Eternal God, in whom mercy is endless and the treasury of compassion inexhaustible, look kindly upon us and increase Your mercy in us, that in difficult moments we might not despair nor become despondent, but with great confidence submit ourselves to Your holy will, which is Love and Mercy itself. Amen

Endless sufferings

The ongoing suffering of our imperfections and failures, of continuing trials, of loneliness, loss, sickness, and pain sometimes overwhelms us. Jesus Your life was filled with many sufferings, please accept our sufferings with Yours and offer them to the Father.

Please help us to remain faithful even when things seem hopeless and we feel abandoned by God, as You did when You cried out from the cross, "my God, my God, why have You abandoned me?

Jesus, even when we feel devastated or despondent, we desire to pray with trust and continue to live in practical charity and prayer for others.
Help us to accept humbly, without surprise or disappointment that we seem imperfect and unfruitful, and that life seems dark and gloomy. Empower each of us to live Your dream of us regardless. Let us be the treasure You created us to be, for You and for anyone in our lives. Please delight Yourself in us and fulfill Your will in our lives regardless of our inadequacies in both our joys and our trials. In Your Name I pray all of this. Amen

 

[HolyRosaryChild]

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In the meantime (before returning to your Country of origin) I would be (i) praying The Holy Rosary for Jesus and Our Lady Mary’s direction in terms of whether to stay in the country you currently reside or return to the Country of your origin.

Why not offer your wonderful skills and talents to the Catholic Education office and system or a Christian organisation being paid? Type into the internet your occupation along with “Catholic and Christian” after praying to Jesus for His Callling to you.

Next, enlist your services through your Local Catholic Church where you currently reside, popping your name down on the list for participation through your Catholic Church and Community to get to know others of our faith.

Please Dear God our Heavenly Father, The Holy Spirit, Dear Jesus Christ our Saviour and Dear Our Lady Mary Mother of Jesus could You bathe Thy Child here in Your Divine Love, Wisdom, Guidance and Joy, sending along the right place for her career and calling to Thee Dear Jesus Christ our Saviour, now and for Eternity Amen,

Our Father who art in Heaven, Hallowed be Thy Name, Thy Kingdom come, Thy Will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven, give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us and lead us not into temptation but deliver us from all evil, Amen.

 

[moonlight87]

Thanks a lot for your answers and for your prayers.
It was really a comfort for me.
I decided not to give up and I feel that God gives me the strength to keep going to my work until He provides me with another job.
I know that now matter how bad I feel, the Lord will and Mary will always take care for me and He will lead me where he wants me to be. How a comfort is that!