I hate feeling this way

[LPS]

P.S. You may find Wisdom in this prayer … I’m sure you’ve heard it before, but maybe you will hear it in a new way considering your trials:

God, give me grace to accept with serenity the things that cannot be changed,
Courage to change the things which should be changed,
and the Wisdom to distinguish the one from the other.
Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
Taking, as Jesus did,
This sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it,
Trusting that You will make all things right,
If I surrender to Your will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with You forever in the next.
Amen.

 

[JamalChristophr]

I want to offer just a few things simply as food for thought. When I went through a time somewhat similar to yours, they are some things the LORD brought me to ponder.

• I read a book that posed the question, “What if God wants to make us holy more than to make us happy?” I don’t think God is opposed to us being “happy,” but making us holy requires some sacrifice and work on our part. You indicated you had come a long way spiritually; you are becoming holy! But to what end? For God … or for the girl? Your answer may be “both,” but it’s good to reflect on our motives and focus.
• I came to a point where I had to consciously choose where I would find my “happiness” - in the person I wanted to be with, or in God? In my case I couldn’t fully follow God and remain with the other person. In your case, perhaps God wants you to fully choose before you know the outcome. And if the outcome is not what you desire now, it will be easier to trust that it’s still the outcome God wills, if you have purposely chosen to place Him first.
• Don’t assume things that are painful are not also loving. As a parent, I took my kids to get their immunization shots and to the dentist because I knew it was good for them. I’m sure they thought I wanted them to suffer and to be unhappy, because their understanding of the experiences was limited.

I write these from painful experience and I’m not trying to minimize your pain or confusion, or to hurt you in any way. I will pray for you! :grouphug:

Well said LPS! Thanks for sharing a great perspective and also for reminding us all who may tend to forget some of what we thought we have learned at some point in our lives.

God Bless!