Hi everyone, sorry if this post is lengthy. I am new here and I want to let you know that I do suffer from a mental illness (Schizoaffective disorder) I was deiagnosed in 2005 after being hospitalized. I have had 2 suicide attempts in the past which I truly regret.
Hi Lizzie…and blessings on you for coming out and stating you suffer a mental illness. I do too and for near on 30 years … Bipolar Disorder and the second of the two major mental illnesses, the first being Schizophrenia.
I have not been ill now, nor looked remotely even like becoming ill for what must be over five years. When I first got ill my doctors told my now ex husband (annulled 15yrs ago) that I would be a cotcase for the rest of my life. This I am not and am a quite successful student on an adult campus for coming up six years and in 2004 received an Award of Merit for Outstanding Student. I credit my current stable health to an absolute conviction that if it was God’s Will I would be well again and never giving up on that despite the odds at times. Dont you give up on it either!!! Have you read :
cathnews.com/news/602/doc/10wds2.htm
THE MENTALLY ILL PATIENT: A FAITHFUL IMAGE OF GOD.
by Cardinal Lazano Barragan Javier
President of the Ponbtifical Council
for
Health and Pastoral Care - Vatican City
…this document can make very heavy reading at times…but hang in there with it - every now and then there are true gems to be pondered especially when the Cardinal starts to deal with the morality of it all - the spiritual aspect.
Remember that the brain is an organ like any other organ in the body and can become dysfunctional and/or diseased. Stating that we have a mental illness is on a precise parallel with stating we have cancer, diabetes or heart disease etc. Mental illness is simply an illness. What is more it is becoming known that “mental illness” can be a real misnomer as a generalization as very often it is a brain condition of some kind AFFECTING mental functioning and is hence a physical condition.
That we are possessed in some way of Satan belongs to the middle ages and a long past age of misunderstanding this illness. Anyone who even remotely thinks along those lines is probably more ill than we are.
I am a wife and a mother to three beautiful girls.
To start of, I was not spiritual or religious in the past eventhough I was raised Catholic and received all the Sacraments.
It was only last year (July), that I found the Lord. I called on Him during the most difficult stages of my pregnancy. I almost fell into severe depression and psychosis that time and was almost hospitalized. But fortunately, with God’s grace, I was able to go into full term and I had delivered a healthy baby girl. Congratulations on the little darling healthy girl:thumbsup: . I can only imagine the type of hell you must have endured re worry.
Often a conversion experience or a return to the fullness of our Faith is gifted to us through misfortune. I am very happy to read that you survived it all and I know how harrowing it all can be.
I am currently taking medications for my illness and there are still times when I would be paranoid about certain things. It is like a roller coaster ride as far as my emotions are concerned.
Certainly medicine in general and medications are a gift of God to humanity in the fight against suffering…hence to see one’s doctor regularly and/or take medication can be a movement in Grace of wisdom and prudence. It heralds and proclaims, witnesses to, the gift of God in medicine and medications. Let us pray mankind will never misuse these gifts of God.
Each day, I pray to God that I am hoping that He will heal me of my illness. It has not happened and I am not losing hope.
I know well those days and recall them vividly when hope and trust was at breaking point and it terrified me. Try and hang in there and no matter what happens dont give up on trusting God. I cannot say where or why, nor how, your journey will take you…but hope and trust in God I can recommend totally and without reservation as absolutely worth it - nor will God confound your hope and trust. Sometimes stretched to breaking point, hope and trust, even Faith, can seem to disappear - and this is a truly ‘dark night’…most often they have not disappeared, only our usual way of experiencing them…try to find someone of Faith that you can talk to openly about your illness and any fears and someone who will support and guide you through any of these ‘dark nights’ of acute mental and spiritual suffering. You may well find, and I am hoping so, much support and encouragement here on Catholic Answers.
I would like to know from the other people who post here if they think that God is still with me inspite of my mental illness. I don’t want to think that I am being possessed by the devil because I do have emotions.
If you read the Cardinal’s article you will insight just how much God really is with us in our mental sufferings and struggles. Like no other, a sufferer of mental illness shares in the anguish and mental suffering of Christ in Gethsamene and on the Cross. Our mental sufferings united to His are holy and salvific as are any and all sufferings united to those of Jesus.
I love my family so much and I am doing all my best to get better.
I really do amire you!!!
I regularly take my doctor’s advice, I go to therapy and never stops taking my meds.
Is there hope that I may recover from this illness with my strong faith in Him?
I think I have addressed your comments above already.
Welcome to these Forums incidentally and I hope it will be arewarding experience for you. There are quite a few of us here who suffer mental illness. While I am certainly stable and have been now for years, I know that the potential for mental instability hangs over me since I do have a clear mental illness and a major one. But for the moment I am very stable and try to take every single day just for that day i.e. only one day ever at a time insofar as I am able. If I should become ill again, then clearly The Lord has permitted it for His Own Good Reasons and I do pray at times that if this should happen that Faith and trust will win no matter the struggle. It is a suffering I know simply to need to walk with mental illness, though it may be quite dormant…what of those wonderful people, like yourself, who must engage in the battle daily perhaps. These people, including you, have the potential indeed to be great saints.
Thank you all for listening!
Rather, thank you for having the courage to share!

May The Lord strengthen and guide you and also your family and may He grant you Peace and Hope and mental stability. Keeping you in daily prayer …
I sense you are reaching out looking for hope and affirmation of your hope - may you find it on Catholic Answers for one only…Blessings galore…Barb
