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i want to start by first stating that i do believe in free will, as it is fairly necessary for the framework of most catholic philosophy. i accept the teachings of the church over my own limited intellectual abilities, but it would be nice if i didn’t have to suspend my own judgment just so i could still live as a catholic. i also realize that this is a common topic, but i did not see any threads that addressed my specific question
my problem is that i do not understand the concept of free will and i am writing here because i would like some clarification in clear language, as the terminology used by the church “talks past” my chain of thought. according to what i have perceived and have been taught, when a decision is made, the individual weighs his or her values and which ever is most important will decide the course of action. if a student’s appreciation of pleasure is more important than his or her commitment to education, he or she might go to a party instead of studying for a test. when the moment of decision comes, it seems to me that the “choice” ends up looking like a type of mechanical equation, where different psychological forces come into conflict and play themselves out in narratives (imagining consequences, thinking about the examples of others, referring to one’s self-narrative, etc), and an inevitable answer comes out in the end.
i do not see in this process where there is any agency, if agency is defined as something more than a series of thoughts that we have been trained to follow. i believe strongly that values are a product of ideology. there is no way to completely step outside of ideology, although we can be aware of it in certain ways. (not all ideologies are bad and being entrenched in one does not necessarily mean that one is deceived, but we are not capable of escaping them.) this is because the mind itself is given shape by society through the learning of language, exposures to hierarchies, adopting roles, etc. by this, i mean that since the mind’s faculties are trained by society, the mind is incapable of thinking about things in a way that is truly independent. you can do things that are opposed to what society tells you explicitly, but the spectrum of options you have is given to you by ideology. so, basically, my description of things is similar to determinism, but not the biological/physical kind.
anyways, since i am highly critical of the idea that the mind is capable of thought that is not structured by culture and society, i am having trouble of understanding where free will fits in. i know that the simple answer is that i am wrong about determinism, but even if that is so, i do not “get” how the concept of free will describes what happens when somebody acts. does it mean that the soul somehow intervenes upon the activities of the mind? in which ways is the mind free? does damage to the mind (insanity/being brainwashed/intoxication/retardation) limit free will? if i decide to do something wrong but then i change my mind midway through, at what point do you judge my agency? how do you cut up a continuous flow of thoughts and movements into discrete moral decision and actions?
this is important to me because i am committed to catholic theology and i realize the full consequences of rejecting the concept of free will. my basic problem is that i do not understand what this concept actually describes and accepting it is pretty much just a matter of forcing myself to repeat the patterns of words associated with the phrase, rather than really getting it. when i act, i do not feel as if i am actually making any decisions, but instead just responding to the different forces in my mind. for instance, when i am tempted, i feel the tension between my understanding of goodness and my desires, and whichever one is stronger at that instant will win. sometimes i am weak and sometimes i am strong, but i do not really see at what point i am asserting agency. i do accept guilt for my sins and feel relief when i avoid them, but it almost seems like these are symptoms for some condition that i enter passively.
if you have an explanation for agency that does not simply return to the language used by the church, i would much appreciate it. i am not opposed to the explanation offered by the church…i just don’t understand how their terminology fits how i perceive actual decision making. free will is supposed to be a gift from God and a necessary tool for accepting Him. i am afraid that my tendency to see determinism in things distances myself from God.
Thank you very much.
my problem is that i do not understand the concept of free will and i am writing here because i would like some clarification in clear language, as the terminology used by the church “talks past” my chain of thought. according to what i have perceived and have been taught, when a decision is made, the individual weighs his or her values and which ever is most important will decide the course of action. if a student’s appreciation of pleasure is more important than his or her commitment to education, he or she might go to a party instead of studying for a test. when the moment of decision comes, it seems to me that the “choice” ends up looking like a type of mechanical equation, where different psychological forces come into conflict and play themselves out in narratives (imagining consequences, thinking about the examples of others, referring to one’s self-narrative, etc), and an inevitable answer comes out in the end.
i do not see in this process where there is any agency, if agency is defined as something more than a series of thoughts that we have been trained to follow. i believe strongly that values are a product of ideology. there is no way to completely step outside of ideology, although we can be aware of it in certain ways. (not all ideologies are bad and being entrenched in one does not necessarily mean that one is deceived, but we are not capable of escaping them.) this is because the mind itself is given shape by society through the learning of language, exposures to hierarchies, adopting roles, etc. by this, i mean that since the mind’s faculties are trained by society, the mind is incapable of thinking about things in a way that is truly independent. you can do things that are opposed to what society tells you explicitly, but the spectrum of options you have is given to you by ideology. so, basically, my description of things is similar to determinism, but not the biological/physical kind.
anyways, since i am highly critical of the idea that the mind is capable of thought that is not structured by culture and society, i am having trouble of understanding where free will fits in. i know that the simple answer is that i am wrong about determinism, but even if that is so, i do not “get” how the concept of free will describes what happens when somebody acts. does it mean that the soul somehow intervenes upon the activities of the mind? in which ways is the mind free? does damage to the mind (insanity/being brainwashed/intoxication/retardation) limit free will? if i decide to do something wrong but then i change my mind midway through, at what point do you judge my agency? how do you cut up a continuous flow of thoughts and movements into discrete moral decision and actions?
this is important to me because i am committed to catholic theology and i realize the full consequences of rejecting the concept of free will. my basic problem is that i do not understand what this concept actually describes and accepting it is pretty much just a matter of forcing myself to repeat the patterns of words associated with the phrase, rather than really getting it. when i act, i do not feel as if i am actually making any decisions, but instead just responding to the different forces in my mind. for instance, when i am tempted, i feel the tension between my understanding of goodness and my desires, and whichever one is stronger at that instant will win. sometimes i am weak and sometimes i am strong, but i do not really see at what point i am asserting agency. i do accept guilt for my sins and feel relief when i avoid them, but it almost seems like these are symptoms for some condition that i enter passively.
if you have an explanation for agency that does not simply return to the language used by the church, i would much appreciate it. i am not opposed to the explanation offered by the church…i just don’t understand how their terminology fits how i perceive actual decision making. free will is supposed to be a gift from God and a necessary tool for accepting Him. i am afraid that my tendency to see determinism in things distances myself from God.
Thank you very much.