I have had it.

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I dont have your troubles…
But if I did, I would want to be encouraged. I think you do too. That’s why you are venting here:D

Remember, you dont need to ask God for things. He knows what you need. He knows what you need better than you. You may need to be stripped of things in order to truly understand our dear Lord is the ONLY “thing” any of us need!
He is calling you to be silent! Just accept things with the grace that is sufficient to open your heart to Himself.

You are down and tired. You have prayed hard. I understand. I do sympathize. May Our Lord give you rest in your heart. He is good…He alone is worthy to hold your soul in His hands. I pray for your protection from this evil spirit of dispair!

Sincerely
Michael
 
Our Father, Who art in heaven
Hallowed be Thy Name;
Thy kingdom come,
Thy will be done,
on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread,
and forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those who trespass against us;
and lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil. Amen.
 
Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of our death.
Amen.
 
I can empathize with you. I am on the same boat right this very moment. My only consolation is that I have learned to acknowledge that God loves me and has been providing for all my temporal needs. I am totally dependent on Him for everything. I continue to struggle to “let go and let God” in my life. This is easier said than done however but with the help of the Holy Spirit this can be done. Continue to hold onto His hands. He knows what is best for us. Continue to praise Him in the midst of these adversities. Trust Him because God loves you. He really does. He is teaching us to be patient and that itself is grace. I will include you in my prayers right this minute.
 
Don’t demand God conform and comply to your will, give yourself to him and conform to his will.
 
Sometimes, God’s answer is “NO!” I learned that the hard way. Sometimes, He has a different plan all together and the ball started rolling when I stopped asking for what God didn’t seem to want to give me. It was very hard for me to let go. It’s been years and sometimes it still makes me cry. I don’t know what to tell you accept this: “Don’t live for this life, do not seek results rather seek God’s presence. Where you find His presence is where you will find direction.”
 
Oh I know, I am feeling sorry for myself just wish God would say yes to at least ONE prayer and maybe he will. I love all of you for answering me. and I will include all of you in my prayers. yes the next life is much more important than this one although this life will set the stage for the next so it is important to do right so the next life will be with The King of the Universe Jesus the Christ our savior. I am tired but will never despair in God. just sometimes in this life. but not the next one. thanks again for all your replies and prayers. God bless
 
I.suggest you read some of St Padre Pio’s letters to.his spiritual director & the letters he wrote to his spiritual children. Basically your feelings are not unusual in the range of human experience & there is a lot of support & comfort to be gained from reading those. They can be found in many books on St Padre Pio, & make you pretty glad that your situation is not worse than it is. I suggest read them. He is a good helper in times of suffering.; since he experienced so much of it himself.
 
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Have you heard of the term “discernment of spirits?” There is the possibility that you are actually receiving guidance on the things you should do to improve your lot in life, but you do not know how to look for them, so you are not seeing them.

I highly recommend buying and reading the book The Discernment of Spirits: An Ignatian Guide for Everyday Living. There is a Kindle ebook of it available so if you want you can read it right away on you computer.

What can you expect from the book? Nothing short of acquiring a supernatural knowing of what you should be doing for every moment of your life. I consider this book so important it should be made mandatory reading for all Christians beginning their spiritual journey.

Give it a try. I’m praying for you.
 
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Have you heard of the term “discernment of spirits?” There is the possibility that you are actually receiving guidance on the things you should do to improve your lot in life, but you do not know how to look for them, so you are not seeing them.

I highly recommend buying and reading the book The Discernment of Spirits: An Ignatian Guide for Everyday Living. There is a Kindle ebook of it available so if you want you can read it right away on you computer.

What can you expect from the book? Nothing short of acquiring a supernatural knowing of what you should be doing for every moment of your life. I consider this book so important it should be made mandatory reading for all Christians beginning their spiritual journey.

Give it a try. I’m praying for you.
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I agree. I am split. On one hand I look to the next life to where all importance must be placed. and don’t care if I am stuck doing stuff I can’t stand. whilst on the other hand I am human and have fears. I want to ride dressage for a living. I am trying everything and I have the ability and the talent and I have been told by the most famous that I indeed have the ability and talent. yet something always gets in the way of finding the right situation. I am tired of all the trials. What I am saying is that I am in the world a little too much. but the what ifs come in to mind. what if there are no horses in Heaven or no hobbies in the next life. I mean my point is that I am worried over stupid stuff and I am prideful worrying what’s in Heaven like I have a sure shot being allowed in. I am afraid of losing my Mother I am afraid that I am being wasted and that I will never attain my dreams, My expiration date is almost up I am in my early 40s and there are people half my age doing what I want to be doing. Some people are born into “easy” Whilst I eat out of garbage cans of life. I agree with you that I need to open my eyes and see the forest for the trees and not worry about my silly dreams. But pray for me. I need it. It also bothers me that I wanted to be a priest and I was accepted but it didn’t work out. I am not mad because God gave a shot he let into a diocese and a seminary for a year. I am grateful for ever to God on high for allowing me a shot. He is awesome. I hope he delivers me from this misery I also offer it up to him that maybe someone else won’t suffer as much. God bless you all Love to all of you for replying.
 
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I agree. I am split. On one hand I look to the next life to where all importance must be placed. and don’t care if I am stuck doing stuff I can’t stand. whilst on the other hand I am human and have fears. I want to ride dressage for a living. I am trying everything and I have the ability and the talent and I have been told by the most famous that I indeed have the ability and talent. yet something always gets in the way of finding the right situation. I am tired of all the trials. What I am saying is that I am in the world a little too much. but the what ifs come in to mind. what if there are no horses in Heaven or no hobbies in the next life. I mean my point is that I am worried over stupid stuff and I am prideful worrying what’s in Heaven like I have a sure shot being allowed in. I am afraid of losing my Mother I am afraid that I am being wasted and that I will never attain my dreams, My expiration date is almost up I am in my early 40s and there are people half my age doing what I want to be doing. Some people are born into “easy” Whilst I eat out of garbage cans of life. I agree with you that I need to open my eyes and see the forest for the trees and not worry about my silly dreams. But pray for me. I need it. It also bothers me that I wanted to be a priest and I was accepted but it didn’t work out. I am not mad because God gave a shot he let into a diocese and a seminary for a year. I am grateful for ever to God on high for allowing me a shot. He is awesome. I hope he delivers me from this misery I also offer it up to him that maybe someone else won’t suffer as much. God bless you all Love to all of you for replying.
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This is the reason why I want you to read the book I suggested to you. From your posts it seems you have lots of suggestions on what to do and what to worry about, so it is best to know WHICH of those you should be listening to.

Give it a try. Please.
 
Perhaps do small tasks, chores… Cleaning, a hobby, make something, fix something broken. Look around, what needs done?. Consider what is available.
 
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Perhaps do small tasks, chores… Cleaning, a hobby, make something, fix something broken. Look around, what needs done?. Consider what is available.
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Sometimes it is those considerations, those possibilities, that is the curse. To have so many choices in front of you, yet all of them leading to the same result: a sense of failure, of not doing what you should have been doing, because that forest of choices obscures the One Choice that is God’s Will for you.

This is what I am offering with the book that I am suggesting: to be able to distinguish the trees from the forest of choices.
 
Yeah I am doing that. I am cleaning out my bus. It is 40 foot storage building. Going to get it started. Putting diesel in it soon. so I am doing something, this needed to be done 5 years. and finally getting to it. I do feel better today.
 
scoobydoo6v92 said:
My expiration date is almost up I am in my early 40s and there are people half my age doing what I want to be doing.
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You are YOUNG!!! I’m almost 20 years older than you and my husband is about twice your age. And we are by no means near our “expiration dates.” I sold my first newspaper article when I was in my late 40s. I started my home business (see below ;)) when I was in my 50s. My husband started tutoring homeschooled students in Latin and now Greek when he was in his 60s. And every year we plan next year’s garden. We plant trees for our future grandchildren.

Some of us are just late bloomers. 😃

And we are not about to lie down and die because our culture thinks we’re old. You won’t get any sympathy from us.
 
I shall pray for you and your mother. Continue praying for your mother’s health, but don’t forget to pray for her salvation. If your mother does die, I know you’ll be very sad and devastated. But just remember that (I presume your mother is a believer) she is in the Purgatory or in Heaven. That would, if my mother died, make me happier than ever.

I remember thinking about how my parents might end up in Hell (mother is agnostic apparently, father is an atheist, sister is probably an atheist too but she’s young) and it saddened me so much and made me cry, that I had to pray for their conversion and salvation, and all the souls in the Purgatory.

Don’t forget that your mom’s happiness on Earth is nothing compared to her happiness in Heaven! With all this said, I really hope she gets better.
 
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