- Do one thing different. I guess I was happy in sixth grade. It all went downhill after that. I don’t know why. But I remember hitting bottom when I was sitting in my cheerleading uniform in 9th grade science class and I realized that I did not talk to a single person at school that day and I probably wouldn’t talk to anyone the next day or even the entire week. I was invisible and nobody cared about me. But you are smart so you are going to understand what I’m about to say: life is like an experiment with thousands and thousands of variables–change one of them and the outcome changes, hopefully for the good (but if not, just change another variable).
I changed one of my variables when 10th grade started. I traded my cheerleading skirts and those terrible, boring, snooty girls for a drum mallet and some marching band dorks. Slowly things changed (actually, not even that slowly. 9th and 10th grades were like night and day). After three lonely years I was visible and happy once again.
I don’t know what variable will change things for you. Maybe you’ll have to try a few, but have a little fun with it. Start eating organic–it’ll drive your Mom (or whoever grocery shops) crazy, but maybe you’ll start hanging out with the tree-hugging hippies and they’ll be just what you needed.
My brother-in-law started a knitting club . . . he was the only boy . . . and he was VERY happy about that. Yes, that might be too wacky for your personality, but find your own “1 thing” to change.
- Word, thought, deed. Why assume you’ll hate your future job? I doubt photographers for National Geographic hate their jobs. I watched “Undercover Boss” once and they had the happiest delivery truck driver highlighted. He was happy, he told everyone he was happy; happy people flocked to him, that made him even happier.
Sometimes you just have to *say *what you want. Then *think *of how to achieve it. That’ll remind you to
do what you need to do to make it a reality.
You think your job will be terrible? Then it probably will be.
- Find a passion.
P.S. Regarding doctors: people only advocate that because they know these forums have limits. Why google the causes of a toothache if a dentist is available? You are unique; your situation is unique, but certainly you must acknowledge that there might be some professional out there that has some beneficial insight. A depressed teenager isn’t exactly unheard of, you know? If you don’t need it, awesome.