Here is a Post of interest:
forums.catholic-questions.org/showpost.php?p=4486889&postcount=6
giving details of free study in Scripture from a Catholic perspective.
Also Father Michael Fallon MSC (his website
HERE) has written quite a few books and many articles on Scripture. He is a scripture scholar of quite some renown and his books and articles are always sound Catholic material…they are also written with great simplicity. His book on the the final Book of The Bible, Book of Revelations, and also his books on the four Gospels, are absolutely invaluable!!!..and written with great simplicity. He takes each passage of the Book of Revelations and also the same with his books on the four Gospels and explains their meaning in great detail drawing on many matters…and with simplicity.
Father Michael is a priest in the Missionaries of The Sacred Heart.
Quoting Jim_OCDS
Without faith in Jesus Christ, reading the Bible, and practicing religion, can be meaningless exercises.
I dont think reading Scripture could ever be a meaningless exercise - ever! …under any circumstances at all. Obviously too the OP, though having an immense struggle with Scripture has been led to take another step and open this thread asking questions. Reading Scripture can be like that, it will take one on a journey…sometimes a long and perhaps at times confusing even apparently meaningless exercise and journey. Reading Scripture always is somehow to engage the Holy Spirit and to be engaged by Him, or one would not be reading Scripture in the first place - He is not at all, nor ever, selective nor snobbish restricting His blessings and gifts to a certain type or number of person - I dont think.

None under any circumstances whatsoever should be discouraged from reading Scripture. It is God’s Word and The Word of God alive, living and dynamic always and forever.
And where I am today is probably not ever where I will be tomorrow…nor how I will be led. It is the same for all without exception for we are all
without exception beloved meandering, often confused often failing and sinful, beloved fallible children of The Father. It is never we reaching out to Him, for first always He has reached out to us and that is why we do reach out to Him howsoever we may do the reaching. Amen.
Barb

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